Another Small Adventure

By golly I think I've got it!!!

2012-01-24T13:24:00.004-07:00

I have been trying to figure out what it is I am suppose to learn from this round of fun with my ~~non-productive system~~ reproductive system.    But I think I may just understand the lesson.    I need to trust.   Trust in the power of the Priesthood. Trust in my Heavenly Father.   Trust in my Savior...that He will not leave me alone as I go through this.    I am striving to be full of faith rather than fear.   I have my moments when it feels so scary but then I pray for help and I am blessed with the ability to move forward.

At this point not only am I tried of dealing with this....my body is uncomfortable.   It is no fun!   I have been waiting to hear from my doctor for 1 week.   If I don't hear from him today I am suppose to call him.   For me this is such a big deal it is hard to remember my situations is not as big to others who deal with people and issues like me all day long every day.   But I am making it through and praying that the right decisions will be made!

Today there is something happening with the cyst. I get sharp pains once in a while and it feels different.   I guess time will tell.

This isn't much of a post...but for a moment I needed to talk.
Thanks for listening!

Ovarian Cysts - The pain in the butt Joys of PCOS.

2012-01-17T21:45:00.000-07:00

I haven't wanted to blog about this...not really at all. By blogging it makes it seem more real or something. About 7 months ago I had an ultrasound done. This ultrasound showed my lining was too thick. So they did a bunch of, not so fun tests, to make sure I didn't have uterine cancer. I came out with a clean bill of health. After a lecture (that was much needed) from my Reproductive Endocrinologist (no I am not trying to get pregnant...I just continue to see an RE because I feel I get better care) about taking my provera each month to start my cycle I went home and was a good girl for 4 months in a row (lets face it...periods are yuck!). By the next ultrasound (3 months ago) my lining was just right and things were looking up. I thought "yeay, I can finally stop worrying". But then just as I was thinking that my RE discovered a little something on my ovary...the only ovary I have left. At first I thought "no big deal" because I have had plenty of cysts over the past 18 + years. But then my RE said this cyst looked like a Dermoid cyst....I call it my "vampire cyst". A Dermoid cyst can contain things like teeth and hair...what a lovely thought. :( A Dermoid cyst doesn't go away without being removed. Not fun news. But I think what I worry about the most is what if this is more than just a Dermoid cyst. What if this is cancer. I was sent home to have regular cycles again for 3 months in a row. Today I went back for my follow up ultrasound hoping the cyst turned out to be a simple cyst or was completely gone. The cyst is still there but bigger. It is taking on the look of a simple cyst more now but it still has dermoid features at the bottom. My RE is going to research through my CT scan images and my ultrasounds to see what he thinks we should do. So I wait for a phone call.

Why am I sharing this??
Because I want my fellow PCOSers to take a hint from me...

take care of your body now so it will take care of you later!
If you are not taking your meds to get a monthly cycle stop being a baby about it and take it!
If you doctor, who thinks they are an infertility specialist, tells you that you can go three months without a period tell them to go back to school and then you go find a new doctor.
If you aren't trying to get pregnant then talk to your doctor about the benefits of using Birth Control Pills to help prevent future cyst problems.
If you haven't had your 3 hour glucose tolerance test, insist on having it order and do it!
If you are suppose to be taking Metormin everyday then set some type of reminder to help you get that in your system along with some good vitamins.
Get on the treadmill, bike or go for a walk outside everyday and start eating more veggies and fruit.
I wish I would have done these things over the past 18 years! I have done everything but not consistently and not all together. I didn't take time for my health. I didn't want a period (who does?) and I didn't want to deal with my PCOS. But now I have to and now I wish I would have been better long ago about taking time to keep my body healthy. I spent so much time building my family and I would spend that time all over again...but I didn't take time out each day to build my health. I took time to love babies even though I knew they weren't staying with me and I would do it again but I didn't take time to love myself. My eyes have been opened. Once again I am learning lessons. I am worth the time and the energy. If I put more into my health I will have more time and love to give to my family and to serve my Heavenly Father. I know with God's help I will get stronger and healthier.
I just have to keep moving forward with faith.
If you are like me and have PCOS start today...get up and take control of your health.

You will thank yourself later!
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If you have read this entire post and you are wondering -what the heck is PCOS??? Here is a place to learn more.

Update.

2012-01-04T14:52:00.004-07:00

I have this little baby blog I started back in the summer but after a couple of posts I left it behind. I posted there today. It is a place for me to focus on my health. I am still blogging here at Another Small Adventure...I just felt I needed a place all it's own for my latest journey. Come on over and visit once in a while. :)
http://icount-myjourneytohealth.blogspot.com/

Picking myself up and running.

2011-12-06T22:01:00.001-07:00

It has been one very terrific week! Back in March of 2011 I started my journey to health and dropped 9 pounds. Then the first week of April my little Spencer was admitted to the hospital with oxygen problems due to RSV. He was officially diagnosed with Reactive Airway Disease but unofficially with Asthma. It was hard to keep up with my new way of eating while in the hospital so I gave in and did what I had to do thinking I could pick up where I left off. By the time I got Spencer all the way better I was sick with the virus and then it was another few weeks before I felt like exercising. By then my fire was no longer burning and I just went back to old habits. But a week ago yesterday I picked myself up and started moving. I have been back to counting calories (using the advice from the Biggest Loser Trainers about how to figure out how many calories to each when trying to lose weight) and exercising very hard every day more than once. It has been alot of work but it has been glorious!!!! I can feel my body responding and the scale shows me 8 pounds lighter for the week. So I am officially 14 pounds lighter than I was when I started this journey in March of this year. I am thankful that the fire within me has begun to burn again. I know my Heavenly Father is helping me and encouraging me to move forward. I am so thankful for His help!

The words my doctor said to me a few weeks ago seem to ring in my head. "Take time to take care of yourself now and you will have years ahead of you to serve your family and serve in your church." This is what drives me....I want to be able to be here for my family for a very long time!

Could there possibly be a better motivation?
Not for me!
Could there be a better month to start something like this? Yea...December isn't the easiest to start out but I figure if I can make through this month I can make through any of them!
Gotta love a good challenge!!!

Thankful for life!

2011-11-22T20:30:00.001-07:00

To say I have had a rough few months would be understating things. It has been an emotional rollercoaster. If you read my blog (barren as it may be the past 6 months) you know some of what has happened in my life. Recently I landed in the ER with an increased heart rate and paliptations. After the docs ruled out all the scary stuff they sent me home with a halter monitor for 48 hours. In the end my heart is fine but I need to decrease my stress level, lose weight, exercise, drink a whole lot more water (just the intake of liquids while in the ER lowered my heart rate to under 100 so I was very dehydrated) and my doc has prescribed me a very very low dose of some meds to help me relax. This was last week.

This week I had to have a follow up on an xray I had during a dental exam. They needed to rule out cancer. Today I met with the oral surgeon and after a 3d xray things look good. I have to have a follow up in 10 months to be sure it doesn't get bigger but it looks like it is just calcium deposits due to an infection or trauma when my wisdom tooth was removed. I feel very thankful!!!!

I am still waiting on the ovarian cyst issue...I will know more in January. I am so done with worrying and stressing over things. I am ready to live again! I am also ready to listen to my body and give it what it needs. I am so happy to report that the weight I lost (a whole 9 pounds) months ago has remained off. I have about 91 more to go. So this journey is picking up where I left it. I am feeling grateful that I have the ability to decide to go on this journey again. Nothing is stopping me but me...so here we go again. What a great opportunity!

Playing Catch Up.

2011-11-14T00:01:00.001-07:00

So much has been going on around here I hardly know where to begin.
I have my own health on the brain so I guess that is a good place to start.
Three months or so ago I had a biopsy done on my uterus along with another test.   Thankfully it showed normal.   I was asked to return and have another ultrasound in 3 months to make sure my lining had gone down (it was rather thick apparently...a common probably for women with PCOS).   So I recently had that ultrasound and my lining looked great but a new issue popped up.   They think I have a dermoid cyst.   This type of cyst you are born with but can get bigger.   I call it my "Vampire Cyst" since this type of cyst can have genetic material like hair and teeth.   Fun hu? blah!    So I get to wait until Jan to peek at my Vampire cyst again so they can make sure that is really what it is. It could also be a cyst with blood in it from ovulation (fat chance of that) or it could be cancer.    I would love the 2nd option the most...but I will take the vampire over the cancer.   Right now I feel ok about it all.   At least for the past months I have had many ultrasounds so if it is something really bad then hopefully they have caught it early.    I pray it is nothing.

The health issues don't stop there however.   I was in the ER this past Friday with a rapid heart rate.   This rapid heart issue started right after the whole" FSA warning couples" nightmare.   I posted on my blog about concerns I had to support an FSA letter that went out.   It was an INCREDIBLY stressful week for me and taught me much about people, truth, loyalty to friendships and tact to name a few.   The rapid heart rate started right after the nightmare was over for me. It went on for 3 weeks and then calmed down.   Over a week ago it started up again.   I have had other stressors in my life since September...on top of my responsibilities as Wife and Mom. The ER ruled out the scary stuff and sent me home on a monitor. Tomorrow I see my regular doctor to discuss what is going on with me.   Hopefully it is something easy to take care of.   My guess would be stress/anxiety.   My brain doesn't feel stressed out but maybe my body does. I am praying my doctor will be inspired to know how to help me.

I am still an Activity Days Leader in my ward. I love my calling.   It is a busy one however. Many wards have two leaders per age group....we decided to do four leaders and have two separate age groups but all four of us work together with both groups. This means we meet each week rather than every other week. Some people think we are crazy but it works well for us.

My kids are busy in school...well everyone but Spencer.   I am happy to have him home with me. Spencer's language skills have really taken off and we are hearing more and more sentences.   Spencer is so lovey and fun!   He is such a blessing!

Brenley's school work keeps her incredibly busy and it has been a good but stressful school year so far.   But I will stress the word "stressful".   Life has changed in our home just because of Brenley's school work.   She is finally being challenged....hallelujah!!!

Haley is doing excellent in school and it appears to be a little easy for her so I am working with her teacher to help her have more challenge at school and work with her at home.   I won't complain for this challenge...it is a positive one! :)

Camden is doing well in Kindergarten and has learned how to behave! He has a great teacher and has a handful of little girlfriends to play with at recess (and he always tells me "Mom they are girls that are friends"...yes Camden I get it lol).

Brad keeps busy with work and church calling.   He amazes me.   He goes to the temple every week, works hard everyday to bring home the bacon and loves serving in our ward.   His service blesses my life and the life of each of our children. There is a special feeling in our home that I believe is a gift given to us because of Brad's service.   I am so thankful!

I have met a couple of personal goals recently.    One was finishing the book "Daughters in My Kingdom".   I love this book.   Even though I have read it from cover to cover I find myself back in the book very often.   I have learned so much and continue to learn as I open it's pages and study.    I recently read a blog where women were expressing their discontent with the book. I don't understand how someone could feel this way about this incredible book.   I feel it is a sweet treasure.    I am hoping that in 2012 my ward/stake RS will use this book to create weekday activities. I would love to dive deeper into the content of the book so I can learn more.

The other goal I met was something I started in 2009 but then kind of left it and would say to myself "I'll get to it another time".   After strong urges from the Spirit I finally finished recording an experience with tithing.   It is a special miracle Brad and I witnessed as we were building our family.   I wanted it on paper so our children would have a copy and I felt impressed to send it to the Ensign.   I have no clue if they will use it but I feel great having the story written.    I realized as I finished how easy it would have been to finish it back in 2009 if I would have just taken the time.     A great lesson in why not to procrastinate. :)

This is just a little of what has been going on around my house.   Life is busy but it is good!   So good!

I have much to be thankful for this Thanksgiving season!

Where to go from here?

2011-11-13T23:45:00.001-07:00

This blog began because I wanted to document the life of my sweet family. It morphed into something else but was also still a record keeper for memories. This blog has been my listening friend as I have passed through health scares, been frustrated by mothering woes, infertility issues, adoption heartaches and joys and was especially helpful as I faced handing over my foster baby after loving her and mothering her for her first 8 months of life. This blog has brought me new friends, great support and a place to write my heart. I love writing and I love my blog. It isn't the most read blog on the net but it is my online home. I have been pondering on where to go from here. Brad was put in our ward Bishopric in June of this year and my life suddenly changed much more than I realized it would. Finding time to blog is harder now....much harder. But I don't want to close my blog either. So for now I am still here....my blog is still alive just not as busy. Facebook has provided me with a great outlet in writing a few sentences of what is happening in my life without taking lots of time from my responsibilities. For now I will probably post more there than I will here but I will be posting here. I hope it will be once a week. That is my goal. I want to remain active in writing and especially writing the comings and goings of our little family. It seems that my blog is morphing again...it is taking a back seat to other things in my life. For right now that is what is most needed and it is me choosing the best part.

I have had questions regarding Matching Mondays. I was hoping to start it up again this month but that is clearly not happening. I will start it again and hopefully soon. But for now it is on hiatus. I still love children and want to help those who are in need of a family but for right now my children need me and they come first. I appreciate every one's understanding. I miss doing Matching Mondays and I look forward to time when I can start it again.

Thank you for sticking with me. :)

When October Goes...

2011-10-31T12:00:00.000-06:00

When I was growing up my older sisters were loved listening to Barry Manilow music. The music must have rubbed off on me because as I grew I began to listen to him too even though he wasn't really the type of music for my age group. I still enjoyed the music of my day but when I was home in my room and just wanted to relax I would turn on a little Barry and chill. There are a few songs that really spoke to me and this was one of them. I am not exactly sure why but it quickly became a favorite.

October is one of my favorite months. My Mom was born in October, my first nephew (and later another nephew and a niece) was born in October. Brad and I were married in October and Haley was born in October. October is full of beautiful colors, fuzzy sweaters, crisp mornings, yummy homemade goodies and warm soups. It is a little sad to say goodbye to this fantastic month each year. I have made it a point to listen to this song at the end of each October. I hope you enjoy it as much as I do.

My Pumpkin turns 9.

2011-10-31T00:00:00.000-06:00

Hip Hip Hooray my baby girls turns 9 today!!!!

I can't believe Haley is 9.

She is growing so fast and learning so many new things.

Some fun facts about Haley...
She smiled at 2 weeks old ( yes a real smile).
She loves to run.
She is a fantastic reader and can read 137 wpm with 97% accuracy.
Haley loves to create all types of art but is especially good with whimsical images.
She is enjoys fashion and loves to put together outfits or draw various outfits.

She also loves to write stories and is working on her own blog.
Haley loves anything to do with Halloween.
Haley came to our family through adoption and is a huge blessing to us!
Happy Birthday Baby Girl!!!!
You might be 9 but you will always be my baby!

Celebrating 17 years.

2011-10-30T21:39:00.001-06:00

On October 22nd Brad and I celebrated our 17th wedding anniversary.
I know 17 years isn't as long as 50 or anything but it feels like a good solid number.   Brad and I were excited to go out and do something special to celebrate this milestone.   Brad planned the evening but last minute we decided to make a change of plans.   Originally Brad planned for us to eat at Tepanyaki Japanese Steak House and then head to a place in Provo to go country dancing.    After talking with me about it we decided to hit the movies rather than the dance floor but plan to try dancing on a future date.

When Brad and I met we were young adults. Brad was working full time and I was working part time and going to school full time.   Pretty much every week and/or weekend I would head to "The Bay" (a dance club in Salt Lake City that was popular among college students) with friends and go country dancing.   I loved dancing and could do all of the flips and tricks which added to the fun!   Brad on the other hand is not into dancing so much. :)   He had taken some ballroom lessons in high school but by the time I met him he was past that desire. So once Brad and I started dating and we got to know one another better I realized dancing was probably not going to be part of our life together...at least not a big part.   Brad overheard me talking about this issue recently so decided to "make it up to me" by taking me country dancing for our anniversary.   He has scored BIG POINTS thinking up this idea and making this plan even though we decided to change plans last minute.    After eating our yummy food at Tepanyaki we were so full and glad we weren't going to be dancing. It might not have been a good combination if you know what I mean.    We went and enjoyed the new "Three Musketeers" movie instead and loved it but most of all enjoyed our time together as a couple.

We kept things simple this year and bought smaller gifts.   I decided to try my hand at some subway art and created Brad's card.   I am going to have it printed bigger so we can frame it and hang it up in our room.

I am always amazed when I stop and look back on our marriage and all we have been through. We have faced some pretty hard trials together and looking back we can see how they have helped us be the couple we are.    Our marriage seems to get better every year and there has been so much joy!

I am so thankful for joy!

Avon Giveaway Winner!

2011-10-13T22:46:00.000-06:00

The Winner is.....

Becky said...

I haven't ordered Avon in years. I forgot how much I loved the Haiku perfume. I'd probably like the gift set but I'd buy it for myself!

October 7, 2011 8:38 AM

Congratulations Becky!!!
Diane will be getting in touch with you to get you the products!

I hope you enjoy them!!!

Daughters in my Kingdom.

2011-10-12T00:00:00.000-06:00

I first learned about this book while attending choir practice for the Relief Society General Meeting that took place a few weeks ago. Each week a member of the Relief Society General Board would share something out of the book. I grew anxious to get a copy in my hands. After 2 months of waiting for the day I could read it myself I walked into the chapel late for our Sacrament meeting. To my surprise as I came to the bench, I knew Brad had saved for us, I saw laying on top of my husbands church folder a beautiful blue book titled "Daughters in my Kingdom". My heart leaped for joy as I realized this copy was for me to have. It has become part of my morning study. I read from scriptures first but then I open this wonderful book and my heart is touched and I learn something important every time I read it. It has become my favorite book. If you don't have a copy go here and check it out online. If you would like to learn more about this special book you can go here.

I shared with you in a post a last week that my experience in preparing for and singing with the choir for the Relief Society General meeting was life changing for me. This book is part of this change...and I am enriched each time I choose to read.

Activity Days Idea: Lovely Minds

2011-10-11T00:28:00.002-06:00

I am an a Leader in my LDS ward Activity Day program. It is a program for girls ages eight to eleven. This month I am in charge of what we do for our Activity Day. I decided to touch on what to do if you come across pornography and what we can do to keep our minds clean and focused on good things. I saw this site and loved their art idea so I decided it would work out well with this activity.

This is what we did:

Read the article from the June 2011 Friend Magazine "Crash and Tell" and discussed what the kids did right in the story.

I then discussed with them how sometimes we might see something, read something or hear something (music etc) that isn't good or makes us feel uncomfortable. We talked about what we can do when that happens and that it is important we talk to our parents, to not dwell on it and helped them understand if they come across something they haven't done anything wrong....they just need to tell their parents about it.

We went on to discuss the part of the 13th article of Faith " If there is anything virtuous, lovely, or of good report or praiseworthy, we seek after these things." and the types of things we can do to fill our minds with good images and thoughts.

Art Activity:

I gave each girl a copy of this image below. I asked them to draw or write those things which they will do to fill their minds with good and positive things in the circle outline. The girls enjoyed making the picture their own and if they finished it and hung it up in their room they passed a requirement off in their "Faith in God" booklet under "Learning and Living the Gospel".

If you would like to use this for your Activity Days event feel free to download it here.

Enjoy!!!

Angels, Prayers and Answers.

2011-10-10T21:36:00.001-06:00

Last night sometime before 11pm I developed some very strong stomach cramps....you know the kind where you basically lock yourself up in the bathroom for hours. I tried to go to sleep in my bed on many occasions but found myself right back in the bathroom. By 3AM I decided to take a chance in hopes of having something to help me feel better. I put on my bathrobe and jumped in our van and headed to the Maverick station. Once inside I grabbed a bottle of Pepto-Bismol and 2 bottles of 7up. Once at the counter I counted my blessings that the guy who helped me looked just as scary as I did so I didn't feel so bad that I had that "just got out of bed" look. Once I paid my money I hurried home, driving and drinking pepto... hoping I didn't get start feeling worse along the way. The rest of the night I began to feel worse and by 7:30AM I was on the floor of my bedroom in tears because of the pain. Brenley saw me lying there and tried to do what she could for me....she covered me in a blanket, and after I went back to the bathroom she made me a little bed on the floor complete with two pillows, a quilt to lay on and a couple of blankets/covers. She had a little table set up next to this little bed that had my pepto, tums and 7up sitting on it along with a roll of toilet paper. Brenley was being my angel this morning.

While all of this was going on Brad had to run to make it to the appointment to get the van inspected. Sometime during all of this Brenley asked me if there was anything she could do for me. I replied "Say a prayer for me." At some point out of just pure exhaustion I fell asleep. I woke up and felt the pain in my stomach and didn't know if I could take anymore. I rolled over and tried to ignore the pain. At some point as I was waking up I realized the pain had been turned off like a switch. I wondered if I dared to move from that position...afraid it would start up again. I had a sweet thought come to my mind...it said "Someone prayed for you" and I knew that thought spoke truth and I knew that the prayer had been answered...my pain was taken. I fell into a deep sleep until 12:00pm.

Sometime this afternoon Camden said to me "Mom I want to tell you a special secret". I said "ok" and I put my ear next to his face. Camden then shared with me that earlier this morning Brenley, Camden and Haley knelt down and they held hands and said a special prayer for me. Apparently it was while Brad had taken the van to be inspected because they asked Heavenly Father to help their Dad get home safely as well. There are moments when you realize just how special your children are and how they are angels from heaven blessing your home each day....today that realization has fallen upon me and I give thanks to God for blessing me in such a incredible way! I also give thanks to Him for answering my children's sweet prayer and creating a miracle. I shared with Brenley my side of the story and we had a wonderful talk about miracles, prayers and a bunch of other things.

As I type this and get ready to publish this post the quote I mentioned in a post a few days ago comes to my mind again.
"if you live up to your privilege the angels cannot be restrained from being your associates."Joseph Smith
Today I am counting the prayers answered and the angels in my life!

Avon Giveaway!

2011-10-07T07:21:00.003-06:00

I just love giveaways....especially if I win (which I haven't... now that I think about it ;)! My sister Diane is selling Avon to help subsidize her income.

Ding Dong....Avon Calling!

So to help her get off on her new Avon adventure I asked her to do a giveaway here on my blog.
Here are the items the winner will receive....

You may remember Diane from this post. Diane has overcome so much and still smiles and is willing to help others. She is a very special person and a wonderful sister!

If you would like to be considered for the giveaway please go to Diane's Avon webpage and look through the current cataloge and come back and leave your name, email address and one item from the cataloge you would love to give as a gift this coming holiday season.
This giveaway will close on Wednesday Oct. 12th at Noon MST.

Remembering the RS General Meeting 2011

2011-10-06T15:37:00.000-06:00

One of my favorite quotes from RS General Meeting.

For the past 2 months I have been busy working along side over 300 other women memorizing music, lyrics and having an incredible opportunity! I don't know how to explain what has truly happened to me this past couple of months but I could try to sum it up by saying -I've changed. September has been an especially difficult month and yet also a glorious month!

This past summer I was called into my Bishop's office and sat with my husband, Bishop and one of the High Councilmen in my stake. I wasn't sure what on earth I was going to be asked to do but was very relieved to find out they were asking me if I would commit my time and talents to sing in the Choir for the Relief Society General Meeting. I was happy to say yes but also a little nervous. Brad had just been called a few weeks before to serve as 1st counselor in our ward. As I listened to the amount of time I would be away from my home I worried about how I would fulfill my commitments and be able to do it all. I admit it was a little overwhelming to think about. It wasn't so much the practice time but it was one more thing on top of trying to figure out our new home routine now that Brad was away serving much of the time. I am thankful for a husband who was willing to support me and a Bishop who made it possible for my hubby to be home when I needed to be at practice.

(Thank You Bishop Anderson!!!)

It wasn't long after this meeting in the Bishop's office that life began to be extra ~~chaotic~~ colorful. School began right after our first practice as a choir (we were practicing lyrics on our own for weeks before this 1st meeting..we had to have all lyrics memorized for four different hymns). While my girls were ready for their first day of school I wasn't ready for the drama that came home each day that week. Being a Mother of a 6th grade daughter is much harder than I ever dreamed. The first week was full of tears about not being good enough for certain friends and feeling left out. It was also full of frustrations as my this same daughter came home with math homework that she couldn't really remember how to do. I wondered what I was in for and shed some tears of my own. But then a wonderful thing happened.....I went to choir practice. Not only did we learn some music and sing but we were given short little thoughts or talks given by a General Relief Society Board member and a Stake President and then at the end of our practice our director (who happens to be one of the main characters in the new movie "17 Miracles"). I left practice that night spiritually fed and my well filled in a way that helped me be ready to take on another week.

The next week Camden finally started Kindergarten.   I cried of course and wished I would have taken more time with him while I had him all to myself. I kissed him and smiled as he walked into his room and prayed he would have a good day.    As I picked him up from school I learned it hadn't been such a great day...Camden had gotten into trouble on his first day. He colored all over the teachers table.   So much for a good start.   I spoke with him and we set up a rewards system here at home in hopes this would help and it did a little but the very next day Camden got in trouble again for getting paper all over the bathroom and playing in the soap.   So much for a great second day.    I was worried about Camden at school to begin with but then as my worries played out I was frustrated and worried even more.    Then I remembered what our director had said as she spoke to us at our practice.   She quoted the Prophet Joseph Smith saying "If you live up to your privileges angels cannot be restrained from being your associates". I knew that this was what my little guy needed....some extra help to be good.   So I began to pray that Camden would have an angel on each side of him to help him learn how to behave at school.   That day he had improved...this improvement has gone on each day and Camden has learned how to behave at school.   I am sure he will still have some hard days but I feel a million times better and Camden feels alot more confident. I am so thankful that help was sent and prayers were answered.

This episode with Camden is one small example of what has transpired in my life during the end of August until the actual day we sang for the RS meeting. Our family has dealt with watching our 11 year old have her heart broken by friends, her finger broken during PE, our 5 year old struggle at school, illness affecting 4 out of 6 of us.   I personally have dealt with being told I didn't have enough faith, my good name being drug through the mud online because I spoke about something I believed needed attention.   I also made a mistake in my calling in my ward that has caused me significant worry and stress and while I have made amends (and was lovingly forgiven by my friend) I struggle to let go of the worry that goes along with this particular aspect of my responsibilities. There are other items I could list but lets just say there has been some emotionally draining events that aren't huge but have affected me deeply.    So it was a surprising moment when I heard from Sister Thompson during our dress rehearsal the Saturday before the RS Meeting. She said something to the effect of - Are you having a hard time?   Then went on to say something like (I don't have exact quotes) - If you haven't yet you will.   She then went on to explain as they prepare for the RS General Meeting they as a RS General Presidency they go through some hard things. She didn't elaborate on what they were but basically said they have challenges.   I felt a sweet peace come over me as she spoke. I finally realized why the past weeks had been so difficult.   Or course the adversary wouldn't want me to be involved in this amazing experience. And I had days where the thought of just quitting came to my mind. I wondered that day what the other women's stories were as they had gone through these weeks preparing.   Suddenly my load felt a little lighter.   I wasn't alone in my struggles.

As I look back on the past number of weeks I realize just how much the words spoken during each of our choir practices help sustain me through another rough week.   The words spoken by these incredible leaders filled my well and helped me carry on.   They quoted Prophets, quoted from the new RS book "Daughters of My Kingdom" and quoted scriptures.   We were taught to "keep our eyes on the Lord","replace fear with faith", "That we are not perfect, but we are perfectable". The list could go on and on.    We were told that our theme for this choir was "These are days never to be forgotten" and I have to tell you that I will never forget them.    While I went through many things I also received many things!   I have had thoughts come to me that are just for me to help me be a better person.   I have watched our family be blessed by the hands of friends around us and I have seen living angels come to my door bearing loafs of bread or a plate of cookies just because they were thinking about me and wanted me to know I was loved.   One particular friend came with a loaf of bread on a day where I had been sobbing all morning. When I answered my door she knew I had been crying (it was all over my face kind of obvious) and she said "Hi!" and I said to her "how did you know?". She replied "I didn't.   I just wanted to serve someone today."   I thanked my Heavenly Father for sending this sweet friend to my door that day.   It helped me remember the Lord is aware of me and loves me.   Once again I think of that quote spoken of during my practice..... "If you live up to your privileges angels cannot be restrained from being your associates." Some angels may be unseen but I know that an angel was sent to my door that day and she delivered much more than a loaf of bread.

The day of the RS meeting came and went much too quickly. I loved every moment of that day. Even when our bus broke down int he middle of Salt Lake City and we started to walk in our dress shoes, black skirts and white tops it was glorious! Other than singing, my favorite part of that special day was seeing the love Sister Beck and her counselors have for each of us.    I felt love from them and from their General Board members. I also had the opportunity to see my own Bishop there in the building as we walked to get our sack lunches in a hallway between the choirs seats and a small theater that we sat in while waiting to be seating for the meeting. My Bishop saw me and came and gave me a hug. My Bishop works for the church and was there for work but took the time to tell me and the other sisters in my ward hello. It was another testimony to me that this Gospel is about the ONE...each one matters and each one of us is loved by our Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.

I will never forget this experience and all that I have learned.
My heart is full of gratitude!!

If you made it to the end of this long post...

thank you for letting me share this special memory with you.

Special thanks to my hubby....I couldn't have had this experience without your help....thanks for all you have done to make sure I was there!

Utah Adoption Exchange Profile Party

2011-10-06T11:05:00.002-06:00

For those who have been pondering over the idea of adopting a child who is hoping for a family....this is the perfect event. Register and come learn more about Utah's waiting children.

This event will touch your heart.

It is also a whole lot of fun!

To register for Profile Party go to here.
To register for the Public Celebration go here.

Another week another lesson or two.

2011-09-18T23:06:00.000-06:00

I am not sure why exactly but September 2011 seems to be my month to learn some lessons. I feel confident in saying that I am learning lessons all of the time it is just the lessons I am learning this month are so different in nature that I feel rather exhausted by it all.
I know I just blogged about seeing my own weakness....again today I was shown my weakness.
I forgot to do something I said I would do....not because I am lazy or wanted to cause problems or anything like that. It has been a simple case of having my responsibility slip my mind completely. As I look back over the past 2 weeks I understand how I forgot ...it has been a busy, crazy and frustarting couple of weeks. For those who follow my blog you know what I am speaking of. I also spent all last week on my couch with blanket, pillow and lots of cold meds to try and feel better. But even realizing the challenges I have had the past couple of weeks I am upset with my forgetfulness...especially with something so important. I strive to be someone who will always do what she says she will do...someone people can count on. I am upset with myself for not meeting these goals.
So tonight I am trying figure out a way to let the people I have disappointed know how sorry I am....and in the process try to find a way to let go and move forward and remember that it is ok to make mistakes.

I have to say sometimes it just doesn't' feel ok.

This is a random post that is really only on my blog to help me process my thoughts and feelings. For those who know me you know this is an important part of dealing with emotions.

I have to write them out. :)

Being Perfectable

2011-09-12T23:42:00.003-06:00

As I grow older I see more things I need to do better in my life.
Sometimes I feel a little overwhelmed by my weakness.
I can see and feel what I want to be, who I want to be, but I fall short most of the time.
Yesterday as I sat in my third choir practice for the upcoming General RS meeting that will be held towards the end of September I listened to our incredible Choir Director

said

"We may not be perfect but we are perfectable."
This touched me deeply....I needed to remember it is ok to have weakness. I have many weaknesses and many lessons to learn and obstacles to overcome. I know that if I do all I can my Savior will do the rest.
I am so thankful for this testimony!

I created this little printable and I framed it and stuck it in my laundry room where I am often in berating myself for not keeping up. This little note will help me remember it is ok if I fall behind the key is to just keep trying to be the best ME I can!

Feel free to use this printable in your home too.

I am not a professional but I am learning...I hope you enjoy it!

One last note....

2011-09-11T09:24:00.000-06:00

This is the last time I will blog about this topic.

I am so done!
I have learned a whole lot the past week. I have learned about myself, my friends and the world of LDSFS. They always say hide sight is 20/20.   If I were to start last week over again I would do a few things differently.   But I can't.   I can only move forward and remember the things I have learned. I love FSA and I love LDS FS. I probably always will.
While there are some things I would do differently....I will always be fighting for adoption.
I will let you imagine what I would change and what I wouldn't....those who know me best will probably guess correct but either right or wrong... you can end the story of this nightmare all on your own in your own way.

I do want to say publicly that I support David McConkie.   I think Brother McConkie is an amazing individual and I truly appreciate the things he has done for me and for adoption.   I also think he has an incredible wife and I am thankful I have had the opportunity to get to know her a little bit.    I put my support behind Brother McConkie and will be praying for his success!

I am now officially getting on with my new week and getting on with my life.
I have so much to be happy about and I enjoy having peace in my heart

and that is what I wish for everyone involved in this ugly mess....

peace.

A clear moment of peace....LOVE IT!

In hopes of lightening the mood.....

2011-09-08T22:59:00.001-06:00

For those of you who are old friends and treasured readers of my blog forgive me for posting this again. I had the need to lighten the mood around here and what better way to do that than to share my testimony of adoption through pictures. I only wish this little clip showed my little Birth Nephew who is loved by many and missed by many and has touched 2 family's lives deeply. Adoption isn't something to argue about it is something to protect and cherish. We may not all agree on how to do this and that is ok the important part is that we become watchful shepherds over this incredible work.
I Love Adoption!

Back to School 2011

2011-09-03T20:53:00.000-06:00

My back to school banner to celebrate the new school year.   My friend Holly got the idea from this blog post. She printed everything out and cut all the paper and letters and scalloped circles for me. What a sweetie don't you think??? Thanks Holly...I loved loved loved putting this together and my kids love it too!
~
The 2010-2011 school year is off and running and so am I.
Running out of steam...running out of clean clothes and running out of ideas for the lunch bags.
I have also been running lunches to school for the kids who call and say "Mom!   I forgot my lunch! I only have a few minutes left to eat!"   And I am running to my knees praying Camden will behave for his teacher each day.    Basically I am running and doing all of those things I dreamed of for so many years.   While it has been totally exhausting and I have been crazy watching my 1 1 yr old go through her up and down moods I am happy to be Mom to this bunch of crazy sweet kids!
The trick is remember this on those not so pleasant days.

Brenley is loving her new teacher and after a few days into the Math she is doing better and remembering the things she learned last year so it has cut out alot of the moaning and groaning when it comes to homework. She put in her application in hopes of running for student office but wasn't chosen.   She was disappointed but I love the way she didn't let it get to her and decided swimming lessons sound just as good!

Haley loves her teacher, loves having one of her best friends in her class with her and is already finished with her first book report which isn't due until the end of September. I am thinking this girl needs a little more of a challenge so we will be addressing that issue soon. But I am happy and thankful to have that kind of concern. Haley starts dance classes this coming week. I can't wait to see where this new adventures takes us. She tried out and was put on a team. This is our first time with this new studio and her team will compete in 5 competitions this year. I am excited about all she will learn!

Camden had a couple of rough first days in Kindergarten and got in trouble. But this is his first experience in a school setting and by day 3 he did so much better and day 4 even better.   I draw smiley faces on his hands to help him remember to be a good boy and make good choices.   He gets two tokens a day in his jar IF he behaves at school.   He has already earned his legos back (they got taken away after his first day of school) and he is on his way to earning enough tokens to get a new little box of legos.   He is thrilled and I can see he is really learning how to be a good student.   So thankful!!!!

Spencer hangs out with me at home and I love having some one on one with him.   He follows me around the house as I get things done. He is so sweet!

So I am looking ahead and wondering what will come our way this year.   I can't wait to put the fall decorations out.   Autumn is my favorite time of year.    This morning as I woke up I could feel the chill that tells me it won't be long before I will be wearing sweaters, making yummy soup and hot chocolate! My kids heading back to school signifies new beginnings and new challenges.
I am excited to meet them!

The Power of Words.

2011-09-03T08:13:00.000-06:00

Brad, Steve Sunday and Me.
Steve Sunday is one of the greatest examples of "building" I have ever had the pleasure of working with. I will be writing more about him this coming week.

This past Thursday I walked into my LDS Stake Center to visit with one of the Stake Presidency members to renew my temple recommend. This is normally a nice peaceful place to be but not this time. From the moment I walked in and then sat down I was being talked about by a cute little girl who was probably 5. She was talking to her brother who older than she. They were calling me "ugly". "She is uuugly!" How nice....I just ignored them. The Mother got after the little girl a couple of time but was too busy with her phone to do much. By the time they were ready to leave they were being loud about how ugly I was and all 5 children were laughing about it. It was not my favorite visit to the stake center. It was very uncomfortable to say the least. I felt a little shaken by the experience. I know what I would have done if my child (or children) were acting this way...they would have been taken to another room and given a good talking to and made to go out and apologize.

I guess this Mom and I think very differently.

This experience didn't make me cry or anything like that but it left me wondering what they saw in me that was so repulsive.   I kept thinking about all of those quotes you hear about how children speak truth.   That evening it kind of stuck in my head but then I posted about it on facebook and got it "out" of my head.   It hasn't bothered me since.

The next morning I woke up and got my kids to school and then checked my email and facebook accounts.   To my surprise I found many wonderful comments from friends sharing sweet and loving words with me.    This time I did cry but it was a good little teary moment.   I felt so much love from these friends.   Some of them were people I grew up with and others are friends I met after moving into our house 5 years ago while others are recent friends.

What a blessing to have loving friends to lift you just when you need a lift.

My Stake Relief Society President post this:
"Brenda, I agree with Kindra that all children don't speak truth and the reasons she listed as why. What I can share with certainty is that all the women who have posted before me have indeed spoken truth. If there is any question in your mind, think about the spirit you felt when it happened and compare it to the spirit you and all of us have felt in reading all the lovely comments found here. We are told that the Holy Ghost will speak truth to our heart and our mind and will bring peace. That is where truth is found."

I have pondered this thought and she is completely correct. There was a certain feeling while I was in with the children who had such nice things to say. There was and is a completely different feeling reading my 33 comments left by kind people who care about me. It has made me think about the power of words. With just a few words we can build someone up and help them see who they really are or we can tear them down with hurtful words that are built on untruths, anger or hate. Words are the way we communicate with one another everyday. I decided I need to stop and think about what I am saying....is it truth? Does it build another person? What can I change in myself to a better builder?

Words can only go as deep as we let them.

While I was taken back by my experience it hasn't shaken my sense of who I am.   While I did feel rather uncomfortable and it did leave me wondering for a little bit, I have chosen to not take it to heart.   But I will take to heart the powerful words of my friends and their love for me.

In this time we live in where words fly to and fro in a click of a button I think it is important to contemplate what we are really saying.
Am I building or am I tearing down?

I choose to build!

Camden heads to Kindergarten

2011-08-31T00:28:00.000-06:00

Camden was up and dressed by 7:00 this morning anxious and ready to start his first day of school.
He wore his new red sports t-shirt and new jeans. He looked like a big kid which makes him happy.
We got to School and Camden couldn't wait to play on the playground. I took his picture and he was off making friends and having fun. Once the bell rang I realized how large this Kindergarten class really was. Thirty One 5 year old all lined up with nervous expressions. All eyes were on these little cuties along with many camera lenses and hopeful and encouraging smiles being shared. I think Kindergarten is as much of a milestone for the parents as it is for the children.

I hugged Camden before he got in line and told him I loved him.

Camden was excited and a little nervous but very ready to jump into this new adventure. He quickly got in line and was ready to start this day. I really didn't think I would get super emotional today since this was my 3rd child to enter school but I was really wrong. Watching Camden walk into his classroom was emotional. My little boy who has been full of energy and fun and also the test on my patience was no longer a toddler or a preschooler....he was a big boy ready to be away from me for a while each day. In that moment I realized how much I will miss him and all of his funny little ways. I realized how much I would give to get to do these 5 years again if I could and how I would do things a little differently. I suddenly realized my little boy is growing up and there isn't anything I can do about it and then suddenly I felt the emotions of all of these things and I have had trouble keeping them at bay all day.

Camden is now home from his first day at school and is bursting with excitement because he got to bring home folders that include homework for him to do. In his eyes he is finally like his sisters....BIG. In my eyes he is my sweet little boy who can't wait to grow up, but thankfully today he is just my little Kindergartner. It is my goal to soak up every moment of this special year...the last year he will be under my watchful eyes for the majority of the day.

If I was in charge at my child's school.

2011-08-24T21:05:00.001-06:00

This is a vent with some thoughts/ideas running through my mind.
It is not directed towards Teachers ( I love and appreciate teachers), PTA Presidents (I have a great friend who is our PTA pres) or any one person in particular....it is just me getting some thoughts out so I can stop hearing myself scream in my own head.
I have felt some frustration this week with the way things run at our elementary. The list isn't long ..just a few items I have wondered about and wished things run a bit differently. I am not in charge and I know my wishes or ideas end here on my blog but I can dream right? So this is me just letting off a little steam so I can move forward and feel happy about most things at my child's school.

If I was in charge at my child's school....

I would have class lists ready to go before the end of the school year so each child will leave with the name of their next years teacher written inside of their last report card.
I would ask each teacher to write up a request list or wish list of the items they need donated at the beginning of the next school year along with items each child needs to bring with them for a successful beginning. (Why would I do this?: To allow parents to obtain a few "wish list" items and the "needed" items BEFORE they have to shop for clothes and shoes for their child or children. It is hard to afford everything all at the same time.) This list would be included in last report card as well.
I would have price list included in a note home letting parents know how much it costs to join the PTA and how much it costs to buy school spirit items. (Why?: So parents can plan accordingly weeks before they are faced with spending the money.) . I would also have the PTA put together a list of what their budget went to in the current school year so parents can see if they even want to put their money towards the organization. ( Having more information about what the budget is spent on would allow for less assuming and more knowledge on the part of the parent. Yes a parent can attend the budget meeting but in order to have a say in the budget I already have had to paid my "fee"....so this doesn't help the parent at the "paying the fee time". Parents need information before the meeting.)

Sometimes the beginning of school feels like when you just got through paying for Christmas and then are asked to pay taxes. Not as drastic I realize but still.. :(
I have decided that rather than writing a post like this next year I will make a note to myself to collect a few items teachers always need and put in on my Google calendar so I am set to buy them in June and put a little away for anything else that comes up school year 2012-2013.
And for the record....No I am not poor or a cheapskate...just a Mom with a budget to keep who didn't remember all of the extras at the beginning of school.
I guess I am learning that remembering is part of my job.

Facing the World Together.

2011-08-23T10:18:00.001-06:00

Our morning began with Brenley and Haley coming into to my room around 7AM. They were excited for the first day of school. Our plan was to have breakfast at 7:30 AM then read scriptures, have family prayer and some music time. We decided to sing while making breakfast at 7:30. While I made sopapillas and scrambled eggs we all sang "There is Sunshine in My Soul" and "Away in a Manger". After the girls set the table we sat down to breakfast. It was nice to have a moment together at the beginning of this hustle and bustle morning. We then cleared the table and read scriptures and said a family prayer. Then the hustle began of getting ready for the day. By 8:55AM we were taking pictures on the porch and then heading out to school.

I could see that Brenley and Haley were both nervous about today and all the "what ifs". Brenley worried about not fitting into the right group and Haley worried about liking her teacher. I am sure there were unspoken worries about this new year. I reminded them as they climbed out of the van that if they have any problems they can always pray. I watched my sweet girls walk together towards the school side by side and then hand in hand as if they were ready to face the world together.

And really that is what they are doing....facing their new world, their new year of joys and trials, friends and fights but moving forward having faith that they will be ok.

Tears filled my eyes as I watched them walk to their new adventure!
They are going to do great things!

I need a break. :)

2011-08-07T22:51:00.002-06:00

As you can see I haven't posted much this summer.
Brad got a new church calling and life has been put in hyper speed . I am not complaining..my hubs gets to serve with truly amazing people and our lives are already being blessed from his service. There are just other things that need my attention and I don't claim to be a Super Woman....I can only do what I can do.

My cuties start school in 15 short days and there is much to do to get ready and alot of fun to squeeze in. Spencer turns 2 this Wednesday (can you believe that?) and I turn 38 this month.

As Ferris Buhler once said

"Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it.".

It is time I stopped and looked around and enjoy the little things I am missing out on in my crazy new world. :)
Be back shortly after my kids start school.

Free Frosty to support The Adoption Exchange!

2011-08-01T14:22:00.002-06:00

2011-08-01T00:00:00.000-06:00

Do you remember this handsome teen??

His name is RJ and I had him on my sidebar of this blog for a few months. I was so touched by his desire for a family. Well today as I was looking through the Utah Heart Gallery I noticed that RJ has been placed with a family! I am so excited about this news!!!!
Makes my heart sing!
~
Utah

Michelle age 13.

Cute sibling group from Missouri.
Darling group from Nevada.

Don't forget....

To register or get more information go here.

Families Supporting Adoption 2011 Conference

2011-07-27T19:22:00.000-06:00

Do you love to be with others who love adoption?
Do you need a couple of days away from your regular routine?
Do you and your spouse need an overnight getaway?
If you answered yes to any of these questions you should go here and register for the FSA Conference.

I am extremely excited about the Friday Keynote Speaker....Sister Julie B. Beck!   My niece decided to get married this same day so I will be missing her keynote but was assured it would be recorded and I could see it at a later time.

Brad and I are gathering adoption books to have for sale at the FSA store again this year along with some great adoption items created by FSA and other adoption related vendors.

I have been asked to present again this year. I will be presenting on Adoption Scams and how to detect them. So sad that this is even a topic we have to discuss.   :(   But we do...hopefully the information I share will be helpful.   I present twice...right in a row so here's hoping it goes well.

My most favorite thing about conference is being with the people I have come to call friends...old ones and new ones.   It is amazing to see and feel the love between people who have a shared passion.   I hope you will take the opportunity to come and bathe in this powerful conference!
I promise you won't regret it!

A Sweet Read - "The Two Princesses of Bamarre"

2011-07-26T00:00:00.003-06:00

I have become addicted to two writers lately.
Gail Carson Levine is one of them.
I recently read The Two Princess of Bamarre and once again found myself lost in a world of dragons and other scary monsters. In this sweet book one Princess faces her greatest fears to try and save her sister from "The Grey Death". A story of courage, love and overcoming weakness. A great book to read while enjoying some sun this summer.
Oh, and that other author I have fallen in love with....her name is Josie Kilpack and I am eating up all her "Sadie Hoffmiller" books. If you haven't started pick up the first Sadie book...."Lemon Tart" and savor every bite!

Matching Mondays

2011-07-25T09:10:00.001-06:00

Happy Pioneer Day for all the Utah readers!(well technically it was yesterday but today is the day we celebrate)
I hope you have fun events planned. We are hanging out at home this year.

A few of my little ones are sick Booooo!
But we get to grill tonight....nothing like a grilled steak or burger! :) yum!

Utah

Harold age 13.

Spence-Chapin has two baby boys available.
They even have a cute video clip of Theo. He is so sweet!

Sweet infant in California needs a special family.

Summer Treat the Kids Love to Help Make.

2011-07-19T00:08:00.003-06:00

I made these homemade pretzel with my girls. It was easy and quick and so yummy.
I used this recipe from Or So She Says.
We made ours into pretzel knots but you could create them in any shape you wish.
My girls enjoyed making them and eating them.
Spencer got in on the action as well.
Enjoy!

Matching Mondays

2011-07-18T00:00:00.002-06:00

I do have some fabulous information to share! On June 29th Brad and I went to part of the Golf Challenge for Wednesday's Child held at Talons Cove in Saratoga Springs. During lunch we learned that Nicholas (you can see him here in the Utah Heart Gallery) is being adopted by his Foster Family! This cute boy has been waiting in foster care since he was a baby. We have featured Nicholas in the past and I have a friend who has inquired about him more than once. He finally gets to have a family all his own!

I am so happy for him!

Miracles happen!!!

Hoping for a miracle for these sweet Utah siblings.

Dominic and Destiney ages 15 and 14.

Mark your calendars and get your thinking caps on....
The Utah Adoption Exchange is holding a benefit to help Utah's waiting children.

You don't want to miss this so start planning now! :)
Go here to read information regarding the event and sponsorships.
I am currently looking to find donations for the silent auction that will take place at this function.
Do you have a connection to a business who would be willing to donate items?
To give you an idea of things Brad and I have seen at various silent auctions held at La Caille here is a list.
Basket of dress up items for a young girl.
Canvas pictures by various artists that you see sold in fine galleries and places like Deseret Book (last year we bid and won a beautiful image of The Salt Lake Temple on Canvas by Artist Robert A. Boyd).
Printed Art would be great too.
Collection of Jane Austen books and movies.
The R House donated jewelry last year.
FSA donated a basket of their adoption store items.
Gift certificates for restaurants/ Bed and Breakfasts/Trips etc.
Fan items from sports groups around Utah.
Handmade items such as quilts, bags, clothing and accessories.
You could put a basket of your families favorite items together and donate...make it something you do together.
The list could go on and on. I hope this helps give you a few ideas.
If you would like to donate please contact me at smalladventuresfamily at gmail dot com
If you can think of a store/business/etsy shop/people who would be willing to donate to this benefit please email me I would be happy to contact them.
I appreciate your help!
Help me promote these children and The Adoption Exchange Benefit by mentioning this post through twitter, facebook or any other social networking site and emails to friends.
Thank You!

Creating Life - "Daddy/Daughter Pow Wow"

2011-07-16T17:01:00.001-06:00

Growing up my parents were involved in the "Mountain Man" world. My Dad loved to learn about Native American history, culture and traditions. During the summer we would have fun at a Mountain Man rendezvous. One summer my parents decided to build their very own authentic Tee Pee. I watched them gather wood from the forest and soak the wood and strip it of bark and then let them dry. I watched my Mom take yards and yards of canvas fabric and cut and sew and cut and sew some more. It took a long time but their efforts were worth it....this is their Teepee. It has been used many many times but it still looks great!
It was this Teepee that was my inspiration for this years Activity Day Girls Daddy Daughter Activity.

Daddy/Daughter Pow Wow
What we did.
When the Dads and Daughters arrived we sent them to the craft table to create little feathered head bands for both. Then the girls were able to make little necklaces out of beads.
Each girl got to create their own.
Making the headbands and necklaces with the help of my cute Mom
(the one in the Native American attire).

That is my Brenley getting her headband tied on by Brad.

The Dads look so fab in their headbands....don't you think? lol

They were great sports!

Once everyone arrived and made their crafts they sat down at the tables we had set up.
We had an opening prayer and welcomed them to the activity.
My Dad even taught them how to say "hello" in Navajo.

We then introduced the games. We had 4 games. We had an Activity Day Leader (or a helper) at each game keeping track of scores)

1. The orange game: (more details to come)

2. Shooting game: We set up two tables. One table we stacked plastic cups and the other one we had their wooden rubber band guns. As a Daddy Daughter team we gave them 3 tries to shoot the plastic cups. Whichever teams got the most cups won.

3. Horse shoe game: Just your plain old game of horse shoes. They played as a team.

4. Throwing ball game: (more details to come)

Each Dad and girl got to go through each game together. We kept track of who won each game and we had prizes at the end.
The Prizes: My friend and fellow Activity Day leader, Erin, created cute awards using "Cow Tails" candy and "Moon Pie" dessert calling it a "cow pie".
I wish I had a picture of the awards she made them look so cute.
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After the games were over we gathered everyone back to the tables and we had a buffet line.
Thanks to Shane Freeman for standing in the summer heat frying the bread!
You are awesome!

We served Navajo tacos (build your own), strawberry lemonade and ice cream bars for dessert.
We used the sopapillas recipe from the "Our Best Bites Cookbook" for the fry bread! It is sooo yummy! I tried to find it on their blog to link you to it but can't find it..sorry. :( It is in their new cookbook.

We received a great deal of positive feedback and we felt like the Dads and Daughters had a good time together.

You may wonder what we did with the tee pee.
First it was present to give the activity more of a" Pow Wow" feel. But it also had a purpose. My Dad has some really neat things like: beaver skins, old guns, black powder rifles and many many other authentic Native American and Mountain Man items. My Dad had items on display inside the tee pee. He loved having the opportunity to show them to the Dads and I think the Dads enjoyed seeing the items.

It kind of became the "Dad" hangout at various times during the activity.
My Dad lov'in every minute of this activity! :)

Thanks Dad!

I had to admit....I have one of the best callings in the church!
Here are a few more pictures from the activity.
My Mom made her Native American dress (and my Dad's attire) herself.
They even used their own leathers.
My Dad in his normal attire. :)
It takes at least about 1 hour or longer to put up the Tee Pee...I truly have angel parents!

Haley getting ready to help set up the Tee Pee...well at least watch them set it up. :) I just love my lil'Haley.

My blog post would not be complete without showing these cute lil' guys! They would have loved to stay and play in the Tee Pee.
It won't be too long before I am seeing them in Cub Scout uniforms. So glad I still have a few years to enjoy their tiny little voices and chubby cheeks. :)

Our Very Own River

2011-07-15T00:50:00.000-06:00

This was in front of my house this past Sunday.
It ended up flooding many homes in my area.
I love rain but this was a little much.
I even saw a car floating.

Creating Life - Creative Gifting for hubbies who go to girls camp. :)

2011-07-14T00:12:00.001-06:00

For the past few years Brad has volunteered to go to our ward girls camp as one of the Priesthood leaders. This year isn't any different. He has a great time helping with this camp and he is a good sport when it comes to being silly. This year the Young Women's President asked the wives of the Priesthood leaders to put together a little gift for each day of camp. They can be silly or serious. I had a whole lot of fun with this project.
This is what I did for Brad.

Break The Ice Gift
The tag says "Help "break the ice"..Bring out your inner Calvin.
Brad is a huge Calvin and Hobbes fan so I thought he would get a laugh out of this. I included a box of "Ice" gum and a bag of pretend spiders and a snake so he can play silly tricks on the girls. :)
If you don't read Calvin and Hobbes just know Calvin is very mischievous.

A Dozen Sweet Word Gift
Rather than give Brad a dozen roses...I created a dozen tags each with a word that reflect Brad.
I then attached a candy bar that represents that word.
Here is a few pictures for an example.

After I finished the tags and attached the candy to the back of each tag I took 2 pieces of 12x12 scrapbook paper and glued/taped them together (this had to be travel proof so I had to use tape and I didn't have any two sided tape...that would have looked much better). Then I rolled them into a cone shape and taped it again.

"You Pop" Gift
Brad has a few nicknames. Like B-Rad, "B", on his LDS mission they called him Elder 'Rocks because of his last name. When we started dating everyone called us the "BB's" because our names started with the same letter. So Bumble Bee's became kind of our "symbol". So I used that symbol and his "Rocks" nickname for this gift. The tag says "B (using a bumble bee image) Rocks You really Pop!" I then attached a bottle of soda pop, bottle caps candy, pop rocks and a ring pop.

Poetry - a favorite.

2011-07-12T00:08:00.000-06:00

Love this poem!

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in

my heart)

i am never without it (anywhere

i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done

by only me is your doing, my darling)

i fear

no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want

no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)

and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant

and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows

(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud

and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows

higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)

and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

~E.E. Cummings

Sweet little voice.

2011-07-04T00:00:00.010-06:00

Haley at age 2 doing the "Thumbkin" song.
I just love how little she is here and how she talks....brings back memories.
I just had to share! :)

Happy Independence Day!!!!
We are having a fun family day!
Matching Mondays will return next week.

Reminiscing and seeing the path before me.

2011-07-03T00:03:00.000-06:00

My sweeties who keep me busy and use my favorite name...Mom! They are playing train with an empty cardboard box....I love it when they play with boxes! Creative play is the best play! :)

You may remember this post when I was expressing my feelings of being kind of "lost" and trying to find my place.   Some big changes have occurred in our family since that post and I can honestly say I can see the path that has been placed before me...the one that I should go.   I am no longer lost but I am in adjustment mode.   For so many years we have been building our family and now they are all here.   I am incredibly thankful and I am enjoying my new path.   I am still trying to fit in a few of those things that I enjoy.....this blog being one of them but since summer = kids out of school which = extra busy mom, it is taken me longer than I expected to find time to do all that is needed and wanted.

I recently posted on my I AM blog about deciding to let our foster license laps.   I am still feeling very good about this decision and weekends like this one (just yesterday truck broke down, Camden broke two bones in his arm and Spencer was puking on Brad at the parts store) just remind me how we truly are done family building. :) While I have pondered over this matter my heart and mind continues to return to 4 incredible women who did something so hard and so loving.   I think about them often and want them to somehow feel my love for them in that moment.    I have also been thinking about these incredible children who are true miracles walking around me everyday! They are the answers to those long prayers and they are the little ones who continued to remind me that they were coming to our family and to not give up.   I am so thankful to be their Mother.    While this weekend has been incredibly crazy and kind of scary I am so thankful I get to have weekends like this....experiencing life just the way I always wanted to.   I am a busy Mom!

I put this little clip together earlier this year and put it in this post.

But today I felt like sharing it again....it speaks my heart.

Matching Mondays - Utah brothers need a family,

2011-06-27T00:00:00.000-06:00

Really cute Utah brothers need a family!
Check them out here.
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Don't forget
Golf Tournament this Wednesday to benefit Utah Adoption Exchange.
Go here for more information.

A Sweet Read - "Fairest"

2011-06-26T19:28:00.000-06:00

I was looking for something new to read....something easy and enjoyable.
I found it in the young adult section of my library.
This book is written by Gail Carson Levine and the story takes place in a place called "Ayortha". Does this place sound familiar? If you read (or watched) Ella Enchanted you would remember Areida who was Ella's Ayorthian friend. With the same magical fun as Ella Enchanted ...Fairest was so enjoyable I couldn't put it down.
If you are looking for a great story to read while soaking up the sun I would suggest this one!
You can visit this author's blog here.

What I've been up to.

2011-06-26T18:59:00.000-06:00

A few weeks ago we received a surprising phone call and we were asked to meet with the Stake President. After a couple of nervous days we sat in the Presidents office and Brad received a call to serve as 1st Counselor in our Ward Bishopric. From that point on life has been put hyper speed. On top of keeping up with Brad's schedule we have had family activities going on and date nights (which I LOVE). Life is full and joyful and crazy. As you have noticed I haven't posted much the past few weeks....I am trying to find balance in my new schedule and then I will come back and post more often. I miss blogging but I am loving the time I have with my kids. Yesterday in the hustle and bustle of trying to get house and children ready for the Sabbath day I took some time out to sit and hold Spencer after his bath. He was all clean in his jammies and I wrapped him in his blanket and held him while he had a nighttime bottle (yes we are still using the bottle....slowly weaning). This is a nighttime routine for Spencer but last night he fell asleep in my arms and I just held him for a while and loved every moment. These are the kind of moments I want to have with my kids this summer.
Sweet moments to remember.

I just wanted you to know I am still here...just taking time to get some order in my home and then will add other things into my life again.

Matching Mondays

2011-06-20T00:00:00.000-06:00

Utah

Nickolus age 15 (goes by "Nick)
What a handsome kid...don't you agree?? :)
Nick enjoys sports and scouts.
He has a desire to go to college and have a family.

Spence-Chapin
Two special infants need a family.
Baby Theo is still in need of a family.
Let others know about him.

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The Utah Adoption Exchange has a Golf Tournament coming up this month.
They are looking for people who love to golf....or better yet people who love to help children.
Click here for more information.
Brad and I will be there....I hope you will be too!

He's Growing!

2011-06-08T22:43:00.000-06:00

Love really does make little things grow!

Spencer thinks he is big enough to eat like this sisters and brother....

At the table.

Spencer loves babies.

Here he is taking care of Haley's baby doll she named Ashanti (rather fitting I think).
I just love this kid!

Crossroads

2011-06-06T16:00:00.003-06:00

So I am finding myself at a crossroad.
For 13 years I have been working heavily in adoption....whether it be volunteering or working to find another child. Most of the time it has been both. In the adoption world I feel like I can be me and I feel like I am understood and I understand others. The fostering world is part of this adoption world at least in my mind. I am grouped with people who love children and are willing to help them. Serving as a Foster parent and serving in FSA have been two of the greatest experiences in my life and have brought Brad and I closer together as a couple and have helped our children understand the importance of family. While we have been in this incredible world for 13 years we have been family building for over 16 years. I know what to do with myself when I am in family building mode. I know what to do with myself while serving as a foster mom or while serving on the National Board for FSA. But today I stand at a crossroad. I am no longer serving on an FSA board. We retired from the National Board this past August. I am in the middle of trying to decide where to go with foster care. Do we license for another year or close that door for a while? It is hard to say goodbye (at least for a while) to something you love to do and feel like you are good at. I am really struggling with this decision. I am also struggling with finding my place in FSA. I feel rather homeless when it comes to FSA. While I am part of a chapter I only know 3 couples from the chapter and they are all busy serving on the National Board. I have never felt like I belong to this chapter and yet right now there isn't any other chapter I feel I could go to. I feel rather forgotten actually but I realize that is in part my own fault. I am not sure how to remedy that problem. With 4 kids and a hubby who is in the Bishopric I don't get the opportunity to go to evening classes at the agency and many times the classes are for those in the middle of trying to adopt a first or second time so it is information I have heard many times and don't really want to sit through again. It is important to have those classes and I wouldn't' want them to not have them....I am just struggling on finding where I fit. I don't feel needed anymore and it has made me sad to think that after all these years and all the time I have put in to help other couples I am now no longer needed. But I guess that is life.

I am looking at the future and wondering where I am headed. Do I just move on and no longer participate in the adoption world that I love so much? Where is my place now? I know you can't answer these questions for me. I just really needed to get this out of my head. In all honestly my heart hurts about all of this and it weighs heavily upon me. I am still involved on a small level. Brad and I serve on an Adoption Sub Committee and I serve on the Utah Adoption Exchange Advisory Board.
I just wish I knew where I belonged now that I am done family building.

Matching Mondays

2011-06-06T00:08:00.000-06:00

Today is the official 1st day of Summer Break!
I can't wait to dive into making pudding pops, slushies and homemade ice cream. The treats of summer are not only yummy but a great way to bond with my kids as we work on making new flavors together. Every child deserves to have some special time with their Mom or Dad. I wonder how it feels to not have a Mom or Dad to do things with....I have pondered this as I think of all the fun families have together over the summer. It is my hope that children who are waiting to be adopted get a family of their own in time to enjoy this summer season.
Find reasons and ways to say yes to a child!
Utah

Keanna age 13.

Elijah age 12.

2011 UVRMC NICU Reunion

2011-06-04T15:57:00.000-06:00

It has been almost 2 years since we said our final goodbyes to Spencer's first home...the Utah Valley Regional Medical Center NICU. We spent 3 difficult yet amazing weeks there helping Spencer learn how to eat, breath and some time to grow. On May 21st we got to go celebrate life with hundreds of other families who have had babies thrive because of the gift of this NICU.
It was a great family day!

Remembering Jessica

2011-05-31T07:47:00.000-06:00

Brenley's feet.

There is a little girl in my life that I deeply love.
I don't get to see her face or hear her voice but I know she is real.
She is in my thoughts every time I see a little girl with red hair, every time I look at pictures of children with down syndrome and every time I use her blanket to wrap my little ones in.
I am in awe of this little girl who came and left this earth without leaving footprints.

Her short time here changed so many things...changed my sister and helped her become stronger full of love for others.

This little girl is a beacon of hope ....the light at the end of dark days.
Jessica today I celebrate you and the miracle of the Resurection and the miracle of the healing of a heart.
I miss you and love you!

Matching Mondays ~ Baby needs family.

2011-05-30T00:00:00.000-06:00

Things are a little crazy at the Small Adventures house...lots of fevers, chills, sore throats and other great stuff. :( So for today I am once again just letting you know about one situation.

Remember anytime you want to look at waiting children please go here and look around.
Spence-Chapin has a new infant who needs a family. Please take a moment and take a peek at Anthony...he is darling!

A Sweet Read - Love finding another great author to read!

2011-05-27T00:25:00.001-06:00

I loved this book...it touched my heart as I related to the characters in their journey to parenthood. But I think the thing I loved most about this book is how it portrays healing. I don't want to say too much in case you haven't read it yet. I had a hard time putting the book down and getting things done around the house. If you haven't read it I would highly suggest it!

I am currently losing precious sleep hours reading this book. I really love the main character. She is an Adoptive Mom who is full of life! It also makes you want to bake as the author has placed yummy recipes throughout the book.
What could be better than reading and food together? lol
Thanks Tausha for picking this as your book club choice....I am so happy you did!!!!

Brothers

2011-05-25T22:04:00.000-06:00

This is our patio we have been working on. We are almost done laying the stone...we need to cut a few piece and then add the sand and sealer on top but rain doesn't seem to want to go away. But the boys are excited to play on it anyway.

Spencer is now 21 months old.

He is learning how to play and Camden is ready and willing to be the teacher.

My heart melts every time I see them playing together.

I am reminded how blessed I am to have these little people in my life and how blessed they are to have each other.

It is such a privileged to have miracles walking around me everyday.

Creating Life - Gag gift for Dad.

2011-05-25T00:47:00.001-06:00

I love my Dad!
He has a great sense of humor and laughs out loud about many things...especially Camden-isms.
My Dad is truly a super hero!    I know he would do anything for me and my family...if he could he would move mountains to help his family.
My Dad loves a person even when that person isn't so lovable.
If you Dad loves a good joke like mine does here is a fun idea for Father's Day.

Present your Dad with his very own Super Dad cape along with a note that reads...
Caution:   This item is very powerful!   Use only in the case of fighting sever evil!

The cape I made was a gag gift for my Bishop for his Birthday.
So the back has the letters SB for Super Bishop.

I just used a random piece of fabric I had in a storage box.
I cut a big rectangle for the cape and then a small rectangle to use as the neck piece. I used ribbon for the tie. To create the letters for the back I found a cute font on my computer and printed the letters off as big as I wanted them to be on the cape.   I then pinned the paper to the fabric I wanted to use and then cut out the letters.   Then I just top stitched them onto the background fabric and then top stiched the background fabric to the cape.   It took about an hour and I was all finished!
If you would like to just print off the tags I made and used you can get them here.   They are super simple but do the trick.   I was short on time that day. :)

Happy Sewing!

Matching Mondays ~ Extra Special Family Needed.

2011-05-23T23:15:00.000-06:00

Each week I check Spence-Chapin website to see what new situations they have listed. This little baby has been waiting for a family since Jan of this year. He is a beautiful baby boy. While he has many challenges ahead, having a family to help him meet those challenges gives him the best chance for a happy life.

Please search your heart.
Maybe Theo is meant for your family?

Infertility & Healing.

2011-05-23T00:48:00.000-06:00

My depiction of what my pain felt like in my head....at my lowest point.

Taken from my other blog: I AM
I have been pondering the posting of this topic for a long time.

recenlty I have had strong feelings about it.

I want you to understand this is MY belief from MY own experiences.

You don’t have to like or agree with me.

I do ask you to respect my thoughts.

When we first started the adoption process we went through a series of classes. One of the classes was on the topic of infertility. It was a wonderful class and I learned so much and felt so validated as I walked out. But that was also the first time I heard the words “you don’t really heal from your infertility grief….you just learn to accept it”. I want to exclaim to the world that in my opinion this is not true. I believe that healing is possible!

Why do I believe this???

In Luke chapter 8 verse 27 Christ says

“ The things which are impossible with men are possible with God.”

As I open my scriptures and read through the account of Christ’s life I gain a testimony that Jesus Christ created miracles while on this earth. We also know that His miracles don’t end with His death. We witness His hand in miracles everyday.

The miracle of healing that I prayed for years ago didn’t happen. I wasn’t healed and allowed to get pregnant and be co-creator with God. It wasn’t because I didn’t have enough faith….it was because of my faith that I was able to move forward and trust in the Lord. Years later after incredible pain, sorrow, frustration and complete exaustion I began to ask for a different type of healing. But I had to do more than ask. I had to study, pray, ponder, study some more, serve others, pray and pray and pray. I also had to seek help from a professional who ended up being a key to my preparations. I had to prepare for healing….although at the time I didn’t realize that was what I was doing. It took 7 years for me to feel that my healing was complete. Healing came line upon line and not in some miraculous instant. I’m not sure when I realized what He had truly done for me....I just remember the realization came upon me.

Healing doesn’t mean I forget the pain, the loss and the misery. But healing does bring peace and understanding even if I don’t have all the answers. I am allowed to see with different eyes.

I love the section in 1 Corithians chapter 13 where Paul speaks about Charity. In verse 12 he says

“For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face:

now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known.

When we look at ourselves with our natural eyes we don’t see our true selves. But when we have been given the gift of Charity we are able to see ourselves the way the Lord sees us and we are able to see clearly.

Charity is the pure love of Christ….it isn’t just about serving others….it is about seeing ourselves and others through the eyes of the Lord. When we ask for Charity and we have prepared for that gift and then the gift is given to us it can fill up those hurting places. It takes the fear and the pain and replaces it with love. As we continue to do the will of the Lord He will continue to bless us with incredible healing until we look back and see what He did for us. I know this is true because it has happened to me and I will never be the same. I have come to see that the Lord is pleased with my journey through the trial of infertility.

Infertility is no longer a trial but an “old friend” and while this friend stays with me the pain doesn’t. It was once a daily struggle to exist with sorrow and hurt taking over almost every thought throughout my day. I now have peace, sweet peace. I don’t quite know how to describe the difference in my life but it has changed everything.

I share these deeply personal thoughts with you in hopes that you will come to know this kind of healing in your life. No matter what anyone teaches us about infertility and healing….the Lord has his own ways and He gives us the best gifts! Prepare yourself by studying about charity, reading scriptures, reading from the latter day Prophets and Apostles, praying, and seeking help if you need it. Then when you feel prepared, go to your Heavenly Father and ask that your pain be replaced with Charity. While it may not happen that instant, it will happen and your heart will never be the same.

Enjoying Motherhood with a peaceful heart.
At last.

What your kids want for dinner is you! Family Home Evening Idea and Class notes

2011-05-16T13:54:00.000-06:00

Last month I attended the BYU Women's Conference with my sweet (and extremly talented) friend Holly. We had a great time and came away from the experience with some incredible information. If you ever have the opportunity to go to Women's Conference.... take it and don't forget to bring a note book to take notes....it is like having a "how to" guide on various topics! I love it!!!!

One of the classes we took was titled "What your kids really want for dinner is you!"
It was taught by two great women: Heidi Bartle and Christine B. Christensen.

sorry this pictures is a little blurry but I love it!
I wanted to share some of my notes with you and if I ever find transcripts to their talks I will let you know.

There were three different talks spoken of during this class.
1. Courageous Parenting by Larry R. Lawrence.

2. Good Better and Best by Elder Dallin H. Oakes
3. Take Especial Care of your Family by Elder Neil A. Maxwell.
Here is an article which relates to the information given: Recipe for drug free kids: Family Dinner

Here are my notes from the class:

Dinner is not about the food it is about the relationships (this could go for any meal).

Heidi gave three important points:

1. Create then Consecrate: Consecrate means to make or declare sacred.

The "Swing Shift" is the most important shift we need to protect this shift and bring our "A Game" to it!

Keep our eyes on the big picture and don't let unimportant things shield your vision.

2.Connect, not Correct:

Invest full effort into connecting rather than correcting.

What is said at mealtime is more important than what is eaten (July Ensign 1990 Improving Family Talk)

Dinner table is an Oasis from life. Think of the scripture that says "Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest" Matthew 11:28

Encourage Family to use uplifting words during dinnertime (mealtime).

3. Minister instead of Administer: Administer means to perform duties, to manage. Minister means to focus on people and principles not program.

Remember the worth of souls is great in the sight of God.

To Minister you give service or aid.

A person is acting as an agent of the Lord. Example: Jesus washed the Apostles feet.

Grasp unique and spiritual opportunities.

Emulate the Savior's example.

Christine Christensen said the following:

Ask Youself - How, where and when can we share ourselves with our family when we are running around doing our own things?

Do simple things together (like family dinner).

Think precise not perfection.

Family Dinners make a difference! Kids need 5-7 meals with family each week. Wethere the meal is breakfast, lunch, snack, dinner or dessert they need 5-7 a week. Family dinner can act as an intervention for a child who is depressed.

The Spirit and Body are the Soul of Man.

Christine talked about Dr. Debra Moore and how "touch" helps premature babies. Can apply same principles to our children...they need hugs etc.

Family meals provide physical benefits : teach children how and what to eat, helps intake of veggies and fruit. Children watch what we eat.

Family Meals provide Spiritual benefits: Children pick up on parents values.

Family meals provide Intellectual benefits: Disscuss world events (some people have a world map by their kitchen table), lessson at church, school etc.

Family meals provide Social benefits: Can talk about the "rose vs thorn of the day" or what "burst vs bubbled" in the day etc. Family meals helps to devbelop the abillity to act rather than be acted upon.

Children need to help prepare meals. She quoted King benjamin "teach your children to love one another and to serve one another".

She also stated; "God hears and answers the prayers of Mothers."

In closing she quoted President Hinckley:
" What can I do better today so that the Lord can bless me?"

When I take classes like these I usually end up with tons of notes.   Many times I recieve thoughs and ideas while the teacher is speaking and if I don't write them down right away I forget them.   So I always have a little symbol I use to help me when I look back at my notes know what was spoken by the teacher and what was spoken just to me by the Spirit.   It was during this class that this idea for a family home evening lesson came.   It is a short lesson and it is combined with dinner (or you could combine it with any meal).   I wanted my whole family to understand a few of the things I learned in this class in hopes we could incorporate it better at home.

While the kids were at school I took some random paper fromt he basement and cute it out in 4 sections to put each piece on each side of the kitchen table.   I wrote on one of the sections "Horrocks Island".
I then printed typed up and printed two different items. The first page said "Family Tabletime is our Oasis" Underneath that I put the defintion of the word Oasis. The second page had the quote from Matthew 11:28 "Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest".    I placed these on the table using something hard behind to allow it to stay up.    I could have spent much more time decorating the pages, table floor etc but I choose to keep it simple.

For dinner I made sweet and sour chicken and rice to go with the theme of "Island".
Once we had asked a blessing on the food and started eating I started talking about mealtime and how it benefits us.   We talked about what an Osasis is and how our mealtime is a place of rest for our family....rest from the hard things from our day and how eating meals together gives us the opportunity to share our feelings and talk about those things that are important to us.    We also talked about how it is good to laugh together and enjoy one another company etc.   I used the quote I printed out and we spoke about the hard things we face each day....I let the kids take turns sharing what is hard for them sometimes.   At the end of this discussion I shared with them how we were going to have more meals and the dinnertable etc.

The lesson was rather short but it went well and the kids have been different about mealtime at the table since then.   We eat dinner alot at the table but now we eat more meals at the table and my kids seem to be more enthusiastic about helping me set the table.

I learned so much in this class and was able to bring some of it home and share.   I have been able to share even more as I set a good example. Sometimes it is hard but I try to remember to see the big picture and I am trying hard to
"Bring my A Game to the Swing Shift!".
I hope you find something useful for you and your family in this post!

Matching Mondays

2011-05-16T12:24:00.000-06:00

Rather than featuring a child today I encourage you to look around at the children on the

Utah Heart Gallery

and also other heart galleries throughout the United States.

Do you have plans this weekend???
Come and Run for Those Who Wait!

Put on your tennis shoes and start stretching,
it’s time to register for the annual
Running For Those Who Wait

The Adoption Exchange family 5K
Murray, Utah

Date: Saturday, May 21st, 2011

Time: Registration - 7:30-8:15 am

Race begins at 8:30 am

Place: Germania Park

5243 South Murray Parkway

Murray, UT

Ticket Pricing: Sponsor $1,000

Individual $20.00

Family of 3 or more $50.00

Race will be un-timed. Prizes will be given to the 1st and 2nd place runners.

For more information contact: The Adoption Exchange at 801-265-0444 or
Click here to purchase tickets online!

Just like his Dad!

2011-05-15T00:02:00.000-06:00

Brad is a gadget/electronic addict.
When he was little he would take things apart and then put them back together just to see how it worked.
I see this side of him as a positive most of the time since Brad can fix just about any item in our home and has saved us thousands of dollars.
But there are moments when I have speaker cords draped across my picture frames so we can have surround sound for the weekend that I begin to get frustrated with this part of my cute hubs. ;)
As you will see from the pictures below....Spencer is a chip off the ol' block!
Spencer spent about an hour with these little plugs

(don't worry....the other side wasn't plugged in and the thing he was plugging it into wasn't hooked up...so we knew he was safe) he loved every minute.

Isn't he the cutest!!!!!

Brenley goes Yellow!

2011-05-13T22:53:00.000-06:00

In November of 2010 Brenley started Karate.
She has grown so much since she started.
I love to watch her practice.
She has the best kee-up (no idea how this is really spelled). Spencer tries to copy her and he kicks his leg and makes a grunting sound. I love it!
Brenley can count to 30 in Korean.
But the best thing Brenley has learned is that SHE CAN DO HARD THINGS!
Brenley just received her Yellow Belt.
We are so excited!!!!

Way to go Brenley!

Creating Life: Home Organizational Help

2011-05-11T00:11:00.001-06:00

My kitchen each night the past couple of weeks. So nice to wake up to a clean house!

About 4 weeks ago I attended my ward Relief Society Weekday activity/meeting.
The topic was on home organization.
It has completely changed the way I clean and organize my home.
The change has been rather dramatic...not in just the way my home looks everyday but in the way I feel about my work at home.
A few months before I went to this class I had a type of break down I guess you could say. I felt so overwhelmed by all that needed to be done in my house and felt so alone in trying to get my home the way I always wanted it to be...clean and orderly. I started thinking that I would never reach that goal.....I started giving up hope that I could ever be that person who has it together. I started deciding that I wasn't' meant to be anything like that. It was hard for me and it weighed on me much of the time.

So this class I went to last month was an answer to an unspoken prayer.

Have you ever been to the website My Giveaway Today ?
Haven't we all been there multiple times lol.
It turns out the brilliant mind behind that website is Emily Cushing and she just happens to be my ward Relief Society President's sister in law.
I didn't really know this until I found out about the class I would be attending....Emily was coming to speak.
I had no idea what treat I was in for.
Emily is brilliant....absolutely brilliant!
I also feel like the Lord has used her gifts to bless the lives of others.
Emily has a great system that allows you to get your home deep cleaned 4 times a year....the great part is that this isn't hard or extremely time consuming because you do a little bit each week. Emily also has a great way of getting her whole family involved in Saturday cleaning and everyday surface cleaning.
I have been using her ideas for over two weeks now and I can't believe the difference it makes in my home and my attitude.   It has also given me alot more free time to be with my family.   My children are getting better about their responsibilities now that they understand what is expected of them.    I feel sort of like an infomercial...but seriously this has changed things in my life for the better.
I asked Emily if I could share her handouts on my blog.   She said I could.    I love it when women are willing to share what they have learned and created with others...what a blessing!!!!
If you would like a copy of Emily's handouts that give instructions and information please email me at smalladventuresfamily at gmail dot com

Please remember the material is copyright protected....be respectful of Emily's work.

Emily shared a few quotes during her presentation but my favorite was

"A lazy man makes more work".

This has stuck in my head and I think about it everytime I am tempted to put off something.

My rotation list. Hangs in the hallway by my laundry room.

My kids cleaning cards.

My weekly "To Do" list. Such great satisfaction crossing items off as I finish them!

I have come to realize how true this quote really is!

Thank You Emily for sharing your gift with others

and

Thank You Sarah for sharing your sister in law with our ward! :)
You were inspired to ask her to come!

Matching Mondays - Love helps overcome our challenges!

2011-05-09T00:00:00.000-06:00

Sometimes as I am looking over waiting children websites I see things that make me so sad. Today was one of those times. Please search your heart and remember no matter what challenge a child may have to live with they will always do better meeting that challenge with a family who loves them and wants them to have success and happiness!

Utah

Esther age 16.

Idaho
Darling sibling group!

Children 0-5 age group who have HIV.
A Note from Reece's Rainbow about children with HIV:

"HIV is a virus that claims many innocent lives when children do not have access to antiretroviral medications. Fortunately, it is treatable and the children who have access to meds and adhere to their treatment have good long-term prognosis.

Children born to women with the virus have a chance of becoming HIV positive due to mother-to-child-transmission. These children are innocent carriers of the virus.

The children you see below are currently living in institutions. Sadly, if they end up aging out of institutional life, there is a high likelihood they will be ill on the streets in a life of crime.

New laws in the US and Canada allow for these children to be adopted. Being in a loving family helps them access medical care and gives them the opportunity to have a normal, healthy, productive life. They can go to college, get married, give birth to healthy babies and live long enough to meet their grandchildren.

To learn more about adopting and parenting a child living with HIV, visit ProjectHopeful.org"

I Count! My Journey to a Better Me.

2011-05-05T15:31:00.000-06:00

I am two days late getting this written and published but that seems to be the way things are going around here. :)
I am very happy to say I have lost the 2 pounds I gained back during Spencer's hospital stay.
However I am not back on top of my game...I am working on that.
I feel like I am still trying to come back from April's stress and illnesses.
I am remembering President Monson's
Formula W: work will win when wishy washy wishing won't!

My goals for this week are water, exercise and getting rest.
I am LOVING how warm it is today....hoping for more Sun!!!!!

Matching Mondays

2011-05-02T00:00:00.001-06:00

This past weekend I was again reminded how hard it is to create a family through adoption.
Each hopeful family has their own story.
Each has their own roadblocks and hard places.
My heart goes out to all of you who are still searching, waiting and praying for their own miracles.
I am praying for your success!

~
Utah

Jordan age 7.

Oregon

Jasmine age 2.

Cute sibling group of 6 in California. Click here and it it takes you to one of the kids and you can view the rest from the links listed on her page.
Nevada sibling group of 3...darling!!!!!

You can view heart galleries from all the states by going here and clicking on the map.

So Glad it is May!!!!

2011-05-01T23:47:00.001-06:00

Lets just say....April was not so fun!
I am glad it is over and I am so ready to jump into May!!
I know I haven't been posting much the past few weeks but I haven't been doing much of anything except helping Spencer get better and trying to get better myself.   After our 5 day hospital stay I came down with what seemed like a little head cold.   But the little cold turned into a huge one. But I guess that is what happens when you stay in the hospital with a bunch of sick kids and their parents..many of them not feeling so well either.   I am just thankful to be feeling a little better!!!

The past couple of weeks I have had the opportunity to sit in a some classes where I have learned some great information.
Our Relief Society presidency put together an incredible class where they had the owner of
My Giveaway Today come and speak to us.   Her name is Emily and she has an incredible talent...actually it looks like she is a very multi- talented person. She took time to share what she has learned/created and incorporated about home organization.   I have been working hard to incorporate her ideas and wow it is making a big difference in our family!!!
I also had the opportunity to go to BYU Women's Conference last Thursday.   It was wonderful and filled my empty well for a while!    I really needed to be uplifted after the trying weeks before.   I am going to be blogging about these classes this week....I want to share with you what I learned and hope it will touch your heart too!

Thank you for all the emails and comments wishing my little guy well and sending your friendship my way!   So many days your sweet comments made me feel loved and cared about!
Thank You so much!!!!

Matching Mondays

2011-04-25T08:00:00.001-06:00

Are you in Utah and enjoy running (or walking fast)?

Come support waiting children!

Running for Those Who Wait– 5K

May 21st, 2011

8:oo a.m.

Germania Park-Murray

$20.00 for an Individual

$50.00 for a family of 3 or more

Register online at www.adoptex.org or call 801-265-0444
I have been banned from running per my Orthopedic Doc...so run a few for me ok! :)

If running or walking isn't your thing come and join us (me and my cute hubs, Brad) at this event.

Wendy’s Golf Challenge

June 29th, 2011

8:00 a.m.

Talons Cove

Foursome’s starting at $500.00

Register online at www.adoptex.org or call 801-265-0444
Have your hubby take the day off too and come join the fun!
Make it a Date!
You don't have to be a great golfer...it is all about the children you will be helping!

Utah

Keanna age 13.

Jesus age 10.

California

Darling baby boy needs a special family!

Make sure you click on this file link once you get to his page.
His is a cutie to the max!
Sweet 3 year old boy needs a family.~
Katrina over at Making Many Memories features waiting children on her blog as well.
Go here and here.

Our Adventures with Ensign Magazine.

2011-04-24T11:00:00.001-06:00

In 2009 Brad and I had the opportunity to be interviewed by an amazing person named Melissa Merrill who is an Editor for the Ensign magazine. We had a great time talking with her and it was a very fun experience. Three other couples that we served with on the Families Supporting Adoption National Board were also interviewed. All incredible couples who we love!

We were told it would be in the 2010 February Ensign. When February came and the article wasn't included we thought maybe it wasn't going to be used. We were surprised to find out months later that it was still going to be published but they wanted to come and take pictures of each of the families they interviewed. So over Christmas break Brandon Flint came and brought his stylist to our home. They were both great. The stylist re-dressed us...even going into our closets to find the right shirts. Since the article was being published in the April edition they wanted us to look a little more "springy". It was a rather funny experience and lots of fun!
My kids had some good laughs and it is now another great memory for our family to look back on.

You can read the article by going here.
The article is very well written and I love what each couple had to say! I hope it helps others who are finding themselves in the same place we all found ourselves in....the beginning of an difficult but incredible journey!
Thank You Melissa for this article!!!!
You are amazing!!!

I Count! My Journey to a Better Me.

2011-04-21T23:05:00.000-06:00

Well....I am at a standstill on my weight. It looks like it might be that way for a few days. The stress of the past few weeks has finally hit me I think. I am struggling with fatigue and today I have come down with something.......not sure what. So I am not on my bike or treadmill today but yesterday and Tuesday I put in 7.5 miles on my bike in 30 minutes and another 1.5 miles on my treadmill in 30 minutes.
I am going to take a few days and try to rest and get better and then get moving again.
I am counting down to summer...I have never been as anxious for summer like I am this one. (Well except for the summer that Brenley was going to be born).
I am sooo tired of the dreary weather...but it kind of matching my month so far. :)
Tonight I am thinking about the song "Here Comes the Sun". lol
Can't Wait!!!

Matching Mondays

2011-04-18T00:00:00.001-06:00

I was so excited to see that Karen who we have featured on Matching Mondays in the past has plans with a family! Sometimes it does my heart some good to go and see the positive things happening for waiting children. Take a peek here to see the good things happening at The Utah Heart Gallery. You can also view one families success story here.
Sometimes when I visit Heart Galleries I get a little discouraged when I see nothing happening...the same children waiting for months and months and even years. I wonder at times what the internal hang up is in that state. It is very frustrating for all involved I am sure. If you have inquired about a waiting child and you haven't heard anything back...call and bug the heart gallery and see if you can speak to the child's caseworker.
Don't give up and become the squeaky wheel!

Yesterday my little boy, Camden, turned 5! He is so excited about it! I have thought about when he first came to our family and as an 8 month old baby. I am continually grateful for the Foster Care training classes we had taken only a couple months before Camden was placed with us. Those classes helped us understand how to help Camden in his transition to his new home and family. While Camden wasn't placed with us through foster care (he was placed with us by his courageous Birth Mother and Birth Father) he needed a smooth transition so he could feel safe. If you are contemplating on wether or not you want to be a foster parent I would suggest you go ahead and take the classes. You will gain some very useful and great information that may end up helping you in other areas of your life. So much of what we have learned has helped us be better parents. Even if you don't become a Foster Parent...you will benefit from the training. So you have nothing to lose.
Have fun with it by making it into your date night with your spouse.
~
Reece's Rainbow Waiting Children

Daria age 2.

Utah

Andrew age 14.

Oregon

Destaney age 16.

Waiting Infant with Special Needs.

Cuteness All Around.

2011-04-16T22:11:00.000-06:00

I have a budding photographer at my house.
While a couple maybe blurry...they are still sweet.

The future photographer....she takes after her Birth Mom! :)

Creating Life - crafts to do list....growing smaller after today.

2011-04-16T14:01:00.000-06:00

I love to craft!

But I love crafting more when I can take something that might be considered trash and give it new life.

My Dad seems to be feeding my addiction by offering me many of his "finds" he acquires on trips to a local area that people use as a site to get rid of the unwanted items in their home. It isn't a dump site...but it is...if you get what I mean. :)

My Dad found some old dresser drawers and took them home and there they sat until I spotted them.
I asked my Dad to add a drawer front and a handle to the back sides of the drawers.
I had a before picture but I can't find it so all I have to share is the after.
I have dirt all ready in the boxes now I just need some flowers.

I have also been working on some strawberry jam.

My first set .... I finally feel like a homemaker. ;)

I Count! My Journey to a Better Me.

2011-04-12T12:03:00.000-06:00

I am wishing I could report great numbers today but I can't.
The whole week at the hospital has bumped me off my schedule and I am struggling to get back on. I am going to go visit my parents for a few days so I will be able to use my Mom's stationary bike each day but my real workouts won't resume again until I get back. I have gained a couple of pounds....but hoping this next week will be able to get them back off plus some.
I guess life happens....I just have to get back on track and move forward.
I am in this for the long haul.

Matching Mondays

2011-04-11T00:43:00.000-06:00

Do you ever watch the sitcom "The Middle"?
It is a huge favorite at our house!!!   It makes me laugh so much...I love that. Laughing is great therapy!
Brad and I find ourselves relating to the Hess family....not sure what that means but it's true. :)
Patricia Heaton who starts as the Mom of the show recently did something wonderful to help children who are waiting to be adopted.

You can read about it here.
I wanted to post about this last week but with my little guy ending up in the hospital I couldn't.   Join me in tweeting a big thank you to this star who has a big heart!

I thought it would be appropriate to feature Reeces rainbow waiting children site for today.
I look through all of the beautiful faces and I can't pick just one or two...please
go take a really good look at the children.
It is only a matter of time before they are institutionalized.
They need families who will love them!

Miracle of Medicine.

2011-04-10T09:44:00.001-06:00

image from ksl website.

After spending 4 nights at Primary Children's Medical Center with Spencer I am so thankful to be home!   I have been pondering on the blessing it is to have medical help so available to us.   It is so scary to watch your child deal with a health issue.   I am so thankful for people who take time to go to school and be trained to become doctors and nurses.   The professionals who watched over Spencer were fantastic!!!   They went above and beyond to help my little guy get better and help him feel comfortable.   One special nurse helped us with information that was incorrect in Spencer's file....it took alot of effort on her part to track down the people who had the authority to give the ok to get things fixed.    She was determined to get it all fixed before we left the hospital!   Her actions were a great act of kindness.

When my Mom was a little girl she became ill with Polio.    She watched other children die from it, become wheelchair bound or have to be in an iron lung.....But thankfully my Mom made it through without any complications.    She later got the Measles and also the Mumps.   I grew up with a Mother who was always expressed gratitude for modern medicine and for vaccines from these horrible illnesses.

I count Modern Medicine as a Miracle and proof that the Heavenly Father is aware of us and loves his children!

Spencer is getting better...every day I see improvements.   We are still visiting "suction" clinics to check his oxygen and get him cleaned out to help him eat.   But we are down to one visit a day. I take Spencer to see his pediatrician tomorrow where we will be making a plan to help avoid asthma issues in the future.   Spencer was diagnosed with Reactive Airway Disease.    I was told by one of the docs at the hospital that Spencer's pediatrician is excellent with this type of issue....so I know we are in good hands!

Today I am counting my blessings....especially the health of my little boy!

Prayers Needed

2011-04-04T01:02:00.000-06:00

As you can see I don't have Matching Mondays ready for today.
I am at the hospital with my little Spencer.
He has RSV and cannot keep his oxygen levels up.
Please pray for my sweet boy!

Thanks for all you support...You guys are the best!

Creating Life - A Gift from the Kitchen

2011-03-30T15:59:00.001-06:00

I have been trying some new recipes for bread sticks and I found one I love love love!
It makes a very soft bread stick and when you add a little garlic and butter Ta-Da! You have a tasty addition to your spaghetti dinner or lunch salad.
You can find the recipe here.
I shape mine into twist sticks by rolling the dough into a large rectangle then cutting it down the middle and then cutting all way across each side to make approximately 16 pieces.   I then cut each piece in half lengthwise. I then gently roll each of the two pieces and then braid them together.
After I place them on a greased cookie sheet I brush melted butter on each one and then add garlic.
Garlic powder works best.
Sprinkle some Parmesan cheese
(if you buy fresh like I do then just use a blender or your food processor to cut the cheese shreds into a powdery form)
I then add a little Kosher salt.
Don't overcook.

Last week I made these and then wrapped them in cellophane with a card stock wrapper and a cute label from Kolette Hall's website "The Art of Choosing Joy".
She designed the cute paper button that says "Just Because".
I Love it!
Then I gave it to a couple of friends.
Hopefully they enjoyed them as much as I do!

I Count! My Journey to a Better Me.

2011-03-29T15:12:00.000-06:00

Struggling to stay motivated!
That pretty much says it all.
I haven't been counting my calories...I need to get back on track with that.
I have been exercising regularly.....I don't miss a day unless it is Sunday and I did miss the day I had a yucky This week I haven't lost and I haven't gained.
230...6 pounds lighter but stuck.
I need to feed my mind with thoughts of success. So I am going to try to read some success stories everyday to remind myself that I can do this.
While this doesn't show up on the scale....I am feeling better. I feel stronger and even though I haven't been counting my calories I am still eating less and better than I was before but I know I need to count in order to lose.
I have been working on this for 24 days....I was hoping to lose 12 pounds in 30 days....that is obviously not going to happen but I am going to focus on what has happened and I am heading the right direction. I just need to stay focused!

Adoption Situation - 7 year old girl.

2011-03-22T16:40:00.000-06:00

I have some information on a 7 year old girl (who is darling!!!!) who needs a family.
They are looking for a family where she would be the youngest.
She is in Utah.
Please contact me for more information.
smalladventuresfamily at gmail dot com

I Count! My Journey to a Better Me.

2011-03-22T16:37:00.000-06:00

So I am excited to announce that as of today I have lost 6 pounds!!!!
WoooHoooooo!
I know 6 isn't much...it isn't 10 or 20...it is 6.
But 6 is sooo much better than 0!
:)
So today I am celebrating my 6!
I have had trouble remembering to count calories the past few days and I lost my favorite calculator
(Spencer has been practicing for his future career as an executive accountant lol)
so I am a little off. BUT I am not letting it deter me!

I am determined!
(just like this mouse lol)
I am doing great with my workouts.

I use the bike for 40 minutes and use the treadmill for 20-60 minutes every evening (unless my siatic never is killing me...then I just do bike and stretches but this has happened only 1 time). I love to exercise outside but since I can't do that right now I turn my tv on and watch re-runs of Criminal Minds and Sienfield.

Great entertainment!!!
So I am pushing forward and keeping positive!

I can't wait to see what another week brings.

Matching Mondays

2011-03-21T00:00:00.000-06:00

I have been feeling a little blue the past few days and I can't seem to shake it. Looking at all of the beautiful faces of children waiting to be adopted has been hard today. So I am going to link you to a few different sites. I need to give my heart a day off I think.
(.lol like that is even possible. :)

Utah Waiting Children

Utah Heart Gallery

Oregon Heart Gallery

Alabama Heart Gallery

Wisconsin Heart Gallery

Idaho Heart Gallery
Washington State Heart Gallery
Alaska Heart Gallery

Spence-Chapin Waiting Infant (sooo cute!)
or just go here
Heart Galleries State by State

Some days when I have looked at the same children's faces over and over again....a year or two later they are still waiting it makes my heart hurt and I wonder what can make the difference for that child. I hope you are the difference!
If you hear of a good success story this week please forward it to me....I need a pick me up.

Dates with my Hubs.

2011-03-18T23:52:00.000-06:00

There is nothing like having my hubby call me up and say "You wanna go out tomorrow night?".
To know he has been thinking of me, planning something to do with me and loves me enough to do both of these things makes me feel like that college girl who couldn't believe he really called. It makes me feel a little weak in the knees.
I love that we still "got it"!
Last Friday Brad took me to my first Opera at Capitol Theater.
We saw "Little Women".

Brad knew I loved the book and both the movies so when he saw it advertised on a bus on his way to work he checked it out.
It was a great experience! I really enjoyed it and loved the humor! An Opera is a little different than I expected but I enjoyed all of it. The only thing I would have changed would have been the way their wrote the ending...but that is for another post. :)
Check it out if you are looking for something to do and you love "Little Women"!

(how could you not love it?)

The Friday before we saw the Opera Brad took me to the Movies.
We saw "The Adjustment Bureau".
I loved it! It was so different and fun! Great date movie!
There is a long list of movies I would love to see in the theaters....that doesn't happen too often. I am sure I am going to be seeing most of them on dvd but what a great list to look forward to.
If you are going to the movies and don't know what to see don't miss this one.
But then again I do like Matt Damon and I am a sucker for any movie with a Brittish accent.

Weakness

2011-03-18T23:38:00.000-06:00

If you have followed my blog the past year you would know that I have struggled with some health issues. Weird symptoms plagued me for a while including hot sensations, insomnia and weakness. It came down to the fact that my body was tired from years and years of stress. I had no idea stress could make my body feel that way...I knew stress could make me feel down emotionally and make me worry but I had no clue the impact stress can have on the physical body. I feel like I have been in the process of re-building my strength. After finally getting back on my feet from all the strange stuff I was left with a weak body....at least weaker than I was. I also developed a back problem (pinched nerve) and a knee that didn't want me to do anything of the things I enjoyed for exercise. I also packed on 40 pounds. So to rebuild my strength is pretty hard when you have lots of extra pounds and joins in pain. Slowly as I have gone to physical therapy and tried to take better care of myself I feel my strength coming back. It has been 2 weeks since I woke up and decided to finally get busy and take charge of my weight. The very next day I went to church fasting and praying for strength to help me lose the weight my body so desperately needs to shed. I have felt the Lord's help all along the way. The feeling is so strong there is no way I can deny where the help is coming from. I am so thankful!!!!
I have been reading in the book of Ether found in The Book of Mormon. In Ether chapter 12 verse 27 it says "And if men come unto me I will show unto them their weakness. I give unto men weakness that they may be humble; and my grace is sufficient for all men that humble themselves before me; for if they humble themselves before me, and have faith in me, then will I make weak things become strong unto them."
I read and re-read this verse a few times. I have hear it and read it before many times but this time it spoke to me in a different way. I already knew the Lord was blessing me with help but this scripture gave me a great reminder to think of when I am having a hard day. Yesterday and Today have been harder days. I have felt down and tired and feeling like I stink at everything I do. Then I think of this verse and my heart is lifted and I remember I am not climbing this mountain alone.
This brings peace and hope to my heart!

I Count! My Journey to a Better Me.

2011-03-15T01:15:00.000-06:00

It has been 10 days since I started worked in high gear to drop pounds. I have learned a few things about myself.

1. I need to drink water way more than I do.
2. I truly am addicted to caffeinated diet soda. (I tried to convince myself I wasn't...but I was in denial)
3. Staying up late gets me in trouble with extra empty calories.
4. I am serious this time around.
5. I can get a good workout even though I am limited on the types of exercise I can use.

My weigh in day is on Saturday mornings. I have lost 4 pounds. I am so excited!!! I still have a long way to go but I am off to a great start!
I haven't gotten my calories down to 1200-1400 a day but I seem to hover around 1600. I can see clearly today how I can change that and get to the numbers I want. But it does take planning. Even at 1600 or even 1800 I am eating about 800-1000 calories less than I was. So I am trying not to be too hard on myself for not being in the range I want to be in at this time.
If you want to follow my daily log go here.
Sometimes it is hard to publicize what I am doing. But I have to keep myself accountable and maybe the honesty will help someone else who is like me....battling weight!

Matching Mondays

2011-03-14T00:00:00.001-06:00

Things are a little crazy at our house...kids are out of school so I am keeping this post simple. When I saw these little guys I feel in love!
They are so cute!!
Utah

Dillen age 3 & Colton age 2.
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Upcoming Events for the Utah Adoption Exchange!
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Please contact Lindsay Kaeding for more information.
lindsay@adoptex.org

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Adoption According to Brenda - How to say "good bye" when you foster.

2011-03-13T22:34:00.000-06:00

Pictures at the last court date...the day we thought the judge might say she would get to stay with us. Sadly this didn't happen.

I have known I wanted to post on this topic for a while and I felt this was the right week to do it but I have put it off all day because it is a hard subject. Ashanti turned 3 this past Tuesday and she hasn't been in my arms since she was 8 months old but even after all this time it hurts and I miss her. I still dream of getting a call from her Father telling us he wants us to adopt her.

I know that call isn't coming. So I try to focus on all the of things Ashanti gave us and taught us and what we were able to give her.

When you love a child but then have to let them go there will always be pain but that doesn't mean you will die when you do it (even though you feel like you will die).   The following things helped me while we transitioned Ashanti over to her Father during a 2 week period ending with me dropping her off at the airport to her Father where he took her to Florida to live.
1. Letting myself feel everything.
During this difficult time it is important to cry if you fee like crying. Scream, punch pillows....let your feelings out.   For me it depended upon the day...some days I cried until I didn't think I could cry anymore and then I cried more.   Other days I was angry.   Sometimes I would take time for myself in my room so I could grieve in private. Whatever you feel allow it to come out.
2. Talk, talk, talk and talk some more.
During this time while Ashanti was with her father for more and more hours each day I spent alot of time on the phone. I talked to my Mom and Sister alot. I talked to friends on the phone or outside in my neighborhood.   Sometimes talking about it helped me.    There were sometimes I didn't want to talk and those times I would just keep to myself.   But I did find a great amount of therapy while talking.
3. Write: blog, journal....whatever works for you.
My blog saved me in many ways.   I needed a place to vent where I could say whatever I wanted and no one would say anything back.   I needed to express what I was feeling and going through.   I found the online support incredibly helpful during this time.   Those who read my blog became a life line to me.   I am so grateful to my readers for their friendship and love during this time.   You can read my posts about Ashanti and Chevey here, here & here.
4.   Find an escape.
Right about the time we were transiting I got my copy of "Breaking Dawn" by Stephenie Meyer.   This book became my "escape".   While Ashanti was with her Father I would curl up in my bed and allow my mind to get sucked into the story.   I also found myself taking naps. Sleep, reading and movies allowed me to take a mental break from the pain and the anticipation of the final goodbye.   This became an important part of those 2 weeks.....it was so painful I had to have some way to think about something else for periods of time.   When Ashanti was home with us every minute was filled soaking in her sweet smell, her cute face and giggles. it truly was an emotional time!
5. Special things to send with the child you love.
I found some comfort preparing some items to send with Ashanti.   We purchased a stuffed Elephant for Ashanti.   We give all of our Birth Mothers a stuffed Elephant to symbolize our "never forgetting".   So we decided to give one to Ashanti too.   I also prepared a large storage container full of her favorite blankets, crib items, clothes she would be able to use soon and anything else I could fit that would help her Father as he started a life as a single father or an infant.   Sending formula, baby items etc brought comfort to me.
6. Special keepsakes just for you.
I kept a bunch of items that mean alot to me that Ashanti used while she was here.   I included the last pajamas she wore (I can still smell her on them)...

the last night at our home, the washrag we used to bath her and the paper she crumpled up in her hands as she struggled with her very first time away with just her Dad.   She had a very hard first visit and came home looking emotionally drained. It broke my heart. I don't know why I keep the paper...it makes my heart hurt when I see it. She was hanging on to it when he brought her back home...but I keep it.

   That is the most painful item...everything else makes me smile.    Everything makes me miss her. Even right now it is hard to write this.   Even thought it hurts it was worth it...she is worth it!   I am so thankful for the time we had!

7. Celebrating what was right and good.
Try to focus on all the happy memories.   While Ashanit and Chevey are not part of our family...they are part of our hearts!    No one can take that away from us.
8. Knowing you did something good.
One thing that helped me as I drove away from the airport after handing Ashanti over for the last time....I had an overwhelming feeling in my heart that we had done something good.   We gave Ashanti so much love and gave her a great start.    The pain is witness of that!

No one can get through something like this without pain unless they never loved.
To those who are going through this and to those who are afraid to foster even though they want to....
I know this is hard but you can do it!    So many children need love....so many children need people like you to help them during one of the hardest times of their life. Let your heart lead....don't let fear stop you from being a foster to adopt parent!
Your life will change in ways you never dreamed and your heart will be filled in places you never realized had holes.

CSN Giveaway - Winner Winner Chicken Dinner! :)

2011-03-10T09:08:00.000-07:00

I am excited to announce our winner of the $35 online gift code for any CSN online store.
The winner is ......

CaryManda

Please email me at cutefamilyof5 at gmail dot com to claim your prize!

Thanks for playing everyone!!!
I am hoping to do more giveaways in the future.

Note*winner chosen by using True Random Numbers at Random.org

Creating Life - Science Fair

2011-03-09T22:40:00.000-07:00

Brenley recently participated in her school science fair.
She tested plant foods to see which one helps plant growth the most.
We all thought it would be miracle grow.
Nope!
Apparently water is the best!
Ironic isn't it! :)
Brenley did a great job on her pictures for her display board.
It was a fun project to help her with.
She didn't place but did receive an Honorable Mention and went on and participated in the District Fair.

CSN Giveaway - Don't forget to enter.

2011-03-08T00:08:00.000-07:00

I am announcing the winner of the giveaway on Thursday.
Don't forget to enter!

I Count! My Journey to a Better Me.

2011-03-08T00:04:00.000-07:00

Me with my Green Smoothie after my morning workout. Excuse the hair and no make-up.   I can't believe I am posting this. :) Just trying to show my honest self.

This past weekend I decided to take the bull by the horns and get busy!   No more fiddling with smaller goals....I clearly need to get moving on my weight loss goals.   I am on day 4 of calorie counting and keeping track of everything from weight to waters to exercise time. But especially keeping track of what is going in my mouth and why.
This has not been easy and I am clearly not perfect at it but I feel good about what I am doing and I know I will get better at it!
I have that feeling in me that says "This is it!!   You are going to do this!

I am now keeping myself accountable by posting my calorie count, water count, exercise time each day under my "I Count" page on this blog.   I will also be tracking my weight once a week.
I have to admit it has been emotionally difficult to actually put numbers on my blog for all to see.
But I feel like I need to do this to help keep myself on track.

I made and drank my first "Green Smoothie". It is a fruit smoothie with spinach blended in. It tasted good...I couldn't really taste the spinach. My kids even drank it. But I did learn a lesson. Don't jump into high fiber too quickly. Yikes!!! I had a horrible stomach ache most of Saturday.
Here goes another week....but this one will be better!

Family Home Evening - The silly things we do after FHE is through.

2011-03-07T22:07:00.000-07:00

We like to goof around.
Here is some proof from last week's FHE night.

This week we had a lesson on Apostles. After reading a few scriptures in the New Testament about Christ calling his disciples together and then choose 12 of them to serve as Apostles and talked about how Apostles are called to be a "Special Witness" that Christ lives.

We then watch the video titled "Special Witnesses of Christ".

It was great! But I made a note to not play the whole thing again until all of my kids are a little bigger. Haley and Camden fell asleep during it and I ended up putting them to bed.

But Brenley stayed awake and enjoyed it.

Next time I will choose a few clips to share.

For our next FHE we will be presenting some information on one of the living Apostles.

We each have one assigned to us.

The kids seem excited to be in charge of "their Apostle".

I hope it goes well! :)

Matching Mondays

2011-03-07T00:00:00.002-07:00

I Love March!!!!
The snow is metling, the tulips start showing signs of life, people hang cute green 4 leaf clovers on their windows and doors and the world around me seems to start waking up from a winter slumber.

I think March really is a "lucky" month!
Hopfully it will prove to be the lucky month for children waiting to be adopted!
Utah

Seth age 14.

RJ is still waiting for a family.
Please read about him and pass his information along.
He really wants to be adopted!
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Utah Adoption Exchange is holding a Golf Tournament on June 29th in Saratoga Springs, Utah.
They will be having a small silent auction. They are looking for help with donations.
If you would like to donate for the silent auction please contact Lindsay Kaeding at Lindsay@adoptex.org
More information on Golf Tournament to come.

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Adoption According to Brenda - Making Foster to Adopt Work.

2011-03-06T13:47:00.000-07:00

Pictures of our final goodbyes to Ashanti before heading on a plane to Florida with her Dad

In 2006 Brad and I took classes to become foster parents. The classes were great and we learned a great deal...more than I counted on. But one of the most important things I learned was the importance of being a positive Foster Parent.
This can be hard sometimes...especially when your ultimate goal is to adopt a child.
You don't want to have to say goodbye to a child you love and saying goodbye is even harder when you see that the level of care they are going back to is not the same level they get when they are with you.
This is hard....there is no other way to say it...

it is hard!

Here are a few things you can do to help make your fostering

(while waiting for the one who is going to "stick)

experience better.

1. Remember each child is a son or daughter of God.   No matter if they stay with you or go back to family what you do with them while they are in your care makes a difference in their life!   Each act of love and service you give to them is building a better future for them.
2. Remember that a child is not "yours" until a judge tells you they are.   Take in each child with love and respect but also with the idea that they will leave. Don't tell your other children that you "might" get to adopt this child.   Help them learn that it isn't a bad thing if they go back to their family....help them plan on it happening. Then if the child happens to stay with you then they will be excited.   If they go back to family your children will be prepared.   We continually told our children the different alternatives...but to plan on them going back home. We learned when we went through saying goodbye to Ashanti how important it is not to set up expectations within yourself or in your children.   Even if a caseworker says that it is starting to look like the case is going to plan b (adoption) just move forward like you are still on plan a (reunification).
3. Think of the Bio parents in a positive light and develop a positive relationship with them. Look for their good qualities.   This may seem impossible but it isn't.   When you can develop a positive relationship with the bio family you are helping not only the child but the parents too.   Some people just need someone to believe in them...believe that they can change.   I have a brother who changed from a drug addict of many many years to a very hard working citizen who loves life and is trusted once again by those around him and by his family.    It doesn't matter what drug they have been doing or the bad decisions they have been making....anyone can change. If you are having a hard time finding something positive try to think of someone in your life who has struggled with addiction or something difficult and treat the bio parents as you would have wanted your family member or friend treated during their hard time.
(I realize there are a few situations where a good relationship will not happen and change will probably not occur...safety is always number one when deciding how to interact with the bio parents.)
4. Help the caseworker work the reunification plan. Don't hinder the process. Be as flexible as you can without jeopardizing your own family.   You will find your caseworkers appreciating you more.   We have had this experience and had caseworkers thank us for being flexible and for not causing problems with reunification.   They then told us they would keep our family in their minds if they had a child who needed an adoptive family.   When you are honest and are kind and follow the plans that are made it helps things move forward which is important to all involved.
5. Keep in very regular contact with the child's attorney. The court will appoint a "Guardian Ad Litem". They are so very important to the child and the case..the ensure the best interest of the child are being met. Email them once a week to give them and update. Email (in my opinion) is better than calls or in person meetings because you have a record of what was addressed. This would also be true for corresponding with caseworkers or anyone involved in the case.
6. Most of the time a child is placed in your care before you ever meet the Mom or Dad.   If this is the case write a letter to the parents telling a little bit about you.   How you will care for the child etc.    Then ask the caseworker to forward it on to the parents. This will put the parents mind at rest and start a positive relationship from the beginning.

In the end you need to make your fostering experience a postive one for the child or children that come into your care and for your own family.
Not every situation is going to be easy or perfect. You are dealing with hard issues and matters of the heart. But I know if you focus on creating a good experience you will touch many lives....and your life will never been the same!

Last picture of Ashanti with my kids.
Isn't she beautiful!

My Blog's 1st Giveaway!

2011-03-02T21:10:00.002-07:00

I am a little giddy today!!!!
I get to have a giveaway on my very own blog thanks to the folks at CSN Stores!
All you have to do is go look at their L Shaped Desk and come back here and share which desk you like best.
My personal favorite is the Kathy Ireland Home- Tibeca Loft Black.
It is very classy looking and perfect for my needs.
I even know which area of my house it would go in. :)
You can have 2 additional entries by posting about this giveaway on Facebook or Twitter and becoming a follower of my blog.
The winner will get a $35 online code to use on any of their 200+ stores.
The winner will be chosen randomly and announced next week.
What a perfect way to celebrate the beginning of my Blog's 3rd year!

*I was not compensated in anyway for this post.

I Count! My Journey to a Better Me.

2011-03-01T23:44:00.000-07:00

My week started off great!
I was meeting all of my goals each day....then Friday the pinched disk/nerve (whatever) started to remind me it is still there. I still kept moving but by Sunday I was in a chair often.   Yesterday was better but again this morning I was in pain.   After taking advil, resting it and then doing my stretches it started to feel better.   I feel very frustrated with pain....I love working out and having that feeling that I can really reach my goals!   But when the pain kicks in it is hard to not get discouraged.   Tomorrow is a new day and I am going to make it count!

I have some new inspiration I want to share with you.
Her name is Becky.   She has struggled with her weight most of her life but with alot of hard work she has lost 200 pounds.    Becky doesn't live far from me but I had never met her.   I got to met her today and give her a hug to say "thanks" for sharing her battle with the world on her blog.   Take a moment and check out her story.
Balancing the Scale

Today I had to remind myself what my body has been through this past year (and beyond).
Truly.....it is holding up pretty well after all these years of stress, infertility, family building through adoption, fostering little children, getting up with newborns on a constant basis for 2 years (almost straight), and having a nicu premie. So many wonderful things in my life have happened over the past 16 years but Brad and I have been through alot. My body has been through alot both emotionally and physically.   I am 100 pounds overweight (40 of that came on this past year with the help of some medicine...unfortunate side effect) but it could be worse.   I think I am holding up rather well after so much.    The best part is....I like who I am inside. I have been greatly blessed with many experiences and gifts.   Now I just need to get my shell to match my insides.
lol
So the journey continues!

Matching Mondays - Happy 2nd Birthday!

2011-02-28T00:00:00.001-07:00

It has been 2 years since Matching Mondays was created.
You can view the first post here.
I honestly can't believe I have been doing this for 2 years.
I have no idea if what I am doing is helping children....I hope it is.
Today I celebrate children, adoption and the ability we all have to adapt to new challenges, overcome trials and the gift to be able to love and be loved.
For some children who are waiting to be adopted...it may take time for their love to be unlocked but with constant care, needs being met and love given...healing can come.
Wherever you live you can make the difference in a child's life. Please take time to share profiles of waiting children...help them by spreading their hopes.
Along the way you just might find that special child that speaks to your heart!
I know I did.

Spencer loving his favorite treat at McDonald's.

Darling Newborn boy needs a family.
(This little guy is so precious...reminds me of my little Spencer).

Other Infants needing families.

1 year old boy in CA.

They are looking for a quick transition...so if you are interested I would be calling tomorrow.

5 year old girl and her 1 year old brother in CA.

Sweet 1 year old boy in CA. Needs a special understanding family.

Utah Adoption Exchange

Oregon - Heart Gallery of Lane County

Alabama Heart Gallery

Adoption According to Brenda - Comparing Grief

2011-02-27T00:00:00.002-07:00

Ashanti w/ me.
"It is better to have love and lost than never to have loved at all"
Amen!

I recently read this brilliantly funny book called "The Actor and The Housewife" by Shannon Hale.

I don't want to give anything away in the book but I will say that one of the characters loses someone they love and while grieving has someone say this.....

Excerpt:
And there was Joann, a well-meaning neighbor.
"I'm sorry about your husband."
"Thanks, I appreciate that."
"You know, my husband left me when I was thirty-three and had four small children. Just be grateful that didn't happen."
Becky stared. Only with superhuman restraint did she keep from asking, "You're saying I should be grateful my husband died?"
"Experts say that divorce is a harder trial to bear than the death of a spouse." The woman nodded to herself. "Hard stuff. Hard times. Yep, hard, hard times. Well, sorry!"

When I read this part of the novel I could relate to the way the Becky character was feeling.   While I have never lost a spouse I know what it feels like to have my pain compared to other peoples pain and to not be validated by others.    One example of this was when Brad and I had gone through treatments for a number of years and were waiting for adoption #1.   I was working in a job I hated but trying to deal with life.   We had already had a failed placement and I was emotionally not well at all.   One of my co-workers who had recently gotten married became pregnant. During the last trimester of her pregnancy she struggled physically with those things that women struggle with while pregnant.   I remember while talking about babies and hoping for a baby she proceeded to tell me "You haven't paid your dues!".   I defended myself and said yes I had. She then said again "No, you haven't paid your dues!". I can't even begin to tell you how this hurt me inside.   I left work that day and once I got in the safety of our own car (Brad picked me up that day) it all came out....I cried so hard. It hurt so much to be told the pain I had gone through didn't count and I didn't deserve to be a mother.   I look back on this experience and others like it (unfortunately I had way too many of these types of things said to me) and I realize how often people felt the need to compare their pain with mine and needed to somehow state how much more difficult what they were going through was than what I was going through.    These experiences made a huge impact on me and I have tried to always validate another persons pain.
One of the great things we learn as go through difficult trials is the ability to feel compassion for another persons trial.   While circumstances may be different we all feel pain...all pain hurts and it is so important to validate what the other person is going through.
I also remember having a Ah-Ha moment after one of these sad encounters.....I had been pondering how Jesus (who is not female) could understand my pain as an infertile woman.   Of course later I realized in a real way that He has felt my very pain through the Atonement but at that time I wasn't at that complete understanding yet.   But one thing came to me....I remembered all the accounts of Christ suffering and being told horrible things...being spat at and some not believing He was who He said He was and I wondered how that felt for Him.   I realized many did not validate Him.   When I had this thought come to me I wept as I realized how much my Savior understands me.
Validating some one's pain is a great gift that we don't give to one another often enough.

Understanding our own grief and feeling compassion for others who are feeling loss is important as adoptive couples are chosen by a Birth Family. While there are many similarities between what a Birth Mother feels after placement and what an Adoptive Mother feels as she deal with infertility it is important to not "compare" grief. Birth Mothers, Birth Fathers and Birth Families need to feel validated and need support rather than being told what they feel isn't much compared to ____________ (you fill in the blank).
While it is always nice to hear that people believe you are courageous and that you "did the right thing"...what many Birth Mothers need is someone to understand they are hurting and to just let them feel what they feel and know that they can say whatever they want at that moment and won't be judged. Validating their pain....validating how they feel in that moment of sadness allows them to feel loved and cared for as they crawl through their hard place.
I don't write this as just an adoptive parent....I am also part of a Birth Family. My incredible niece, Erin, placed her baby boy, Gabriel for adoption. I of course am not a Birth Mother but I love the Birth Mother and I love my Birth Nephew and it was hard to say goodbye to him. I felt feelings I didn't think I would because I understand what was waiting for him on the other side of the adoption. I was very surprised at what I learned.

I also write this as a Mother who loved a baby with all of her heart and cared for her for 8 wonderful months and then had to say goodbye knowing I would never see her again....knowing she wouldn't have the same level of care as we could give her. It was a very hard experience that still hurts.
Validation helps people dealing with loss, pain and grief.
It is amazing what happens when you give the gift of validation....you find it coming back to you in ways you never expected.

Creating Life - Valentines

2011-02-23T16:27:00.000-07:00

I love life!
There are times when it just hits you how fun it is to be alive!
I stayed up on Feb. 12th until the around 1am Feb. 13th and helped my 3 oldest children make Valentine Boxes for school.   Well at least the girls go to school...Camden just wanted a box to be like his siblings. :) I understood how he felt so I was a willing participant.
While I lost out on some good sleeping hours I went to bed feeling like a good Mom and my kids went to bed knowing their Mom loves them. This was a win/win experience. :)
Brenley and I did some brainstorming on how we should make the boxes. We knew we wanted something more than just a shoe box decorated.    We came up with making "Wedding Cake" boxes.    It was more work than I thought but once I made one the second was much easier.   I created the "layers" and the kids decorated the cakes.

For Camden I made him a "Ship" box by following instructions found on Family Fun site. They call it the "Love Boat". Don't ya just love that! lol Makes me giddy!

Valentines Day is one of those really fun holidays.   Brad always surprises each of us with a fun gift and this year was no different.   Chocolates for everyone, cute light-up heart pens for the girls, a Matchbox car for Camden and cute little soft balls for Spencer (just the right size to hold in his hand but big enough he can't put in his mouth).    I got a package for foot care items (which was badly needed) and a gift certificate for Laser Hair removal.   A dream for any woman with PCOS!    Of course Brad didn't walk away empty handed....I left a few treats in his truck for him to find on the way to work.
Isn't life wonderful!
It is nice to have a special day that helps us remember the love we have for the people that make our life worth living!

I Count! My Journey to a Better Me.

2011-02-22T00:00:00.001-07:00

I think I have found the perfect tool to help me in my battle to lose weight....
"Just Dance" game on Wii!
I LOVE it!
So my daily workout looks like this:
Bike 15 minutes on 5-7 difficulty (which is way up from my 3 I used when I started)
15-25 minutes on Just Dance
15 minutes strengthening stretches
I feel like I have finally found the right combination for me!
I have been playing around with this system for the past week but haven't hit it everyday.
I am going to hit it hard this week. My goal is to follow this new system everyday except Sunday.
I am also setting the goal of eating salad's for lunch each day. I love salad and when I eat them regularly I start dropping weight.
So water, salads and my workout will be my focus.
If you have a great salad recipe to share please post it on your blog and link it to this post.
Or email your recipe to me.   I would love to try some new ones.
Do you use the Just Dance on Wii too?
I would love to hear which songs you love to use for exercise.
I have three favorites: "U Can't Touch This", "Pump Up The Jam" & "Wannabe".
Makes me feel like I am 17 again. :)

Special Children in need of Special Families.

2011-02-21T23:51:00.000-07:00

My sister Diane and her hubby, Russ.

On May 31, 2002 my sister delivered her only daughter.
Jessica Blair
She had beautiful locks of light red hair and a beautiful round face.
I held her and loved her.
Jessica was perfect in every way...except for her heart. She had a hole in her heart. She didn't get to take her first breath....her heart stopped beating the moment they cut the umbilical cord. It was a sad sad day that seemed to never end. The sadness spread into everything, and it felt like the world should stop to acknowledge the loss of the perfect daughter, granddaughter, sister and niece. Jessica was my chance to witness a pregnancy from beginning to end. I was with my sister for everything...even the moment the doctors wisked her away and to do an emergency c-section. Six minutes from rushing her from the room to having Jessica out and she still didn't live...6 minutes was still too long for our sweet baby girl.
We later found out that Jessica had down syndrome. Some said "oh, it is for the best". Ya we just wanted to punch those people. None of us cared that she had down syndrome...we just wanted her with us. We still want her with us but we will have to wait and meet her in heaven.
I wanted to share this little story with you (you can read the entire story here) because I love what this blogger is doing to help little ones with down syndrome.
Please visit her blog each Friday as she features a few of these special children who need families.
Katrina....keep up this great work...it is so important!

To my perfect little Niece....I love you and miss you!

Matching Mondays

2011-02-21T21:33:00.002-07:00

Next Monday Feb. 28th Matching Mondays turns 2!
I want to celebrate and I hope you will join me!
More information to come.

Utah

Nicholas age 13.
Nicholas has been in foster care since he was an infant.
Please help him find his forever family.
Forward his link to your family and friends.

No child should have to grow up in foster care!

Spence-Chapin Babies.
Wisconsin Heart Gallery

Cutting Kids Out of State Budget??

2011-02-17T08:33:00.000-07:00

There have been a couple of issues in the past that I have posted about regarding budget cuts in Utah but Wednesday I received an email alert from Kathy Searle from The Utah Adoption Exchange regarding cuts that will deeply affect children in foster care. It will make it so not families with big hearts (but smaller wallets) will not be able to come forward and adopt children.
This is the email I received.

"I just heard that state adoption funding may be completely cut by our Utah
legislature and just wanted to let you know so that you can help get the word
out to any Utah parents. The following are on the Social Services Appropriations
sub committee making the decisions. We are 88th on the list of about 134 to be
funded. Please contact these committee members and let them know how important
adoption subsidy funding is to our children and to the children waiting to be a
part of a permanent family."

Kathy was interview by KSL regarding this issue and it aired last night on the 10:00 news. I cannot seem to find the clip to share with you here (which is frustrating). Kathy is very concerned and help getting to word out.

Please do what you can to spread the word and please help those in charge of making the decisions see how it affects children. I am sure most of them making the decisions have no idea that they will be hurting children and making it harder for children to be adopted from foster care.

I realize we are in a time of cutting...some things need to be cut but this isn't that "something". There are plenty of other places to cut without it affecting those who are most vulnerable.

Here are the people to contact:

Rep. Melvin R. Brown, Chair
Sen. Lyle W. Hillyard, Chair
Rep. John Dougall, Vice Chair
Sen. Dennis E. Stowell, Vice Chair
Rep. Brad L. Dee
Rep. Gregory H. Hughes
Sen. Scott K. Jenkins
Sen. Patricia W. Jones
Rep. Brian S. King
Sen. Peter C. Knudson
Rep. David Litvack

Rep. Rebecca D. Lockhart
Sen. Benjamin M. McAdams
Rep. Ronda Rudd Menlove
Sen. Karen W. Morgan
Sen. Wayne L. Niederhauser
Sen. Ross I. Romero
Rep. Jennifer M. Seelig
Sen. Michael G. Waddoups
Rep. Christine F. Watkins

They will be making their decision tonight 5:15 in the Senate building room 210.
Please help!