Monday, April 29, 2013

A tender heart, and unexpected life.

My heart has been tender recently about many, infertility, my sweet family and many other things which have weighed heavily upon my heart.   I am working on my weak places and I know which the Lord's help those places can gain strength.   I see blessings all around me.    Sometimes it is good to be reminded that life will not always go as we wish but when we turn our hearts to the Lord will we become what He sees we can which is greater than anything I could dream up.
I needed this reminder today....the reminder that I was meant to be who I am.   My place in this world has meaning and importance to the lives I may touch and those lives who touch mine have great meaning and importance to me.   I will never be that woman who gets pregnant and gives birth because I was never meant to be that woman.   I have a different role with just as much value.   Sometimes it is good to be reminded of that value.   I will never be that woman who never struggles with weight but this helps me become soft hearted to those who struggle with the same issue.    There are so many things I will never be....but even when it hurts to know this, as long a I know I matter to my Heavenly Father and He is guiding me to be the best me I can be, I can move forward and see the blessing of an unexpected life.  

"My Heart’s Garden"

I liken my heart unto a garden. In my garden was planted a seed called Desire. As I continually worked on my Desire I watched for it to grow but nothing happened. Weeds called Pain & Frustration entered into my garden....I wondered why I was given desire if it was not to produce? Over time a bigger weed called Hopelessness began to take over my garden. I struggled to overcome the pain, frustration and hopelessness. I felt so alone in my garden! I cried out to the Master Gardner for help!
As I asked for help I began to see the soil of my garden was becoming increasingly soft. The Son was sharing its warmth and I started to feel a new seed being planted. This seed was very delicate and needed a soft place to is called Faith. My seed of Faith began to grow slowly and as it grew I began to feel hope for my garden. I still felt pain from my first seed but I began to have understanding. My Faith continued to grow as I looked at the Son.
After years of working and growing I look and see a beautiful Heart’s Garden! I see now that the seed that caused so much pain in the beginning helped my soil become soft and it was the soft soil that gave my Faith a tender place to grow.
From my seed of Faith grew love, understanding, hope, more faith, knowledge, testimony, compassion, joy, happiness and charity! Maybe someday my other seed will begin to grow but regardless if it does or doesn’t my garden is a masterpiece, a blessing, a miracle and a gift! Through my Heart’s Garden I have come to understand more fully promises given to Abraham and his seed. I especially have a deeper understanding of my Gardner and what He did for me in His Garden......called Gethsemane!

Written by:
Brenda Horrocks

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