Tuesday, November 4, 2008

How?

How do I do this?
How do I hand her over on the final day?
How do I not die in the process?
How do I live beyond this?
How will she do?
How will he care for her the way she needs to be?
I can't take it!
I feel so angry and sad.
It hurts so much.
I want to scream!!

5 comments:

The Hull's said...

Oh I'm so sorry.. I don't think that I could be in foster care just for that reason because I would get to attacthed and it would hurt to bad.. I hope that you will be able to find the peace that you need.. I will pray for you.. This is Cindy H. from the ldsadoption group..

arianne said...

brenda I am sorry to hear about the baby. I love you and we will keep you in our thoughts and prayers.

It's ME! -- Christie -- said...

brenda, my heart just aches knowing this news. I could not do this, a part of me would just melt away...my heart and prayers are with you as I think of myself in your shoes...I am sending you hugs and warmest thoughts of hope in healing.

Amanda said...

Brenda - I am so sorry that this has happened. I wish I knew just how to comfort you and your family. You will ALL continue to me in our prayers.

Kim said...

Sweet Brenda...

Love you. Sometimes the plan sucks and that is that. Sometimes is JUST SUCKS.