Wednesday, November 5, 2008

existing

I feel dead inside.
It is not a very fun way to feel.
There is so much I need to be doing...should be doing
but I can't do anything.
The hurt controls my life.
I don't have Baby A. very much during the day anymore.
I miss her!!!!
Sometimes I wish I could sleep for a long time...
Sleep is the only escape from the reality of losing her.

5 comments:

Jody said...

Brenda...my heart broke for you when I saw your comment tonight. If you ever want to talk or something just email or call me. I know when Kourtney left it helped a lot to talk to someone who understood what I was going through. I'm here for you if you need me.

Jody

The Hull's said...

I'm so sorry for your pain.. I will pray for you.. I'm sorry I really don't know what to say to help take your pain away.. I will just say that you are in my prayers and if you need to talk I'm here too... cghmmh69@yahoo.com

Leisha said...

Brenda my heart aches for you. I am always up for a girls night out if you want to chat. Huggs.

mrs. r said...

oh brenda. this is my worst nightmare. keep writing, i promise it will help you and others.

tears.

Adrienne said...

I'm reaching out to you in thoughts and prayers. You are strong, you are a daughter of God and He loves YOU, He will not leave you alone. Sending you a big big hug and wishing I could take some hurt away.