Today

Today..
I miss my favorite baby so much it hurts.
I got a call from John...Ashanti is doing well.
I wish I was holding her and playing patty cake...her favorite game.
I wish I smell her soft hair again and feed her baby food and watch her spit it at me.
I wish I was in Florida where my favorite baby is.

Today...
I haven't had one sip of diet coke.
I feel tired and emotional.
I am sick of my extra weight and what it is doing to my body.
I feel depressed.

Tomorrow is another day......
I hope it will be different than Today.
I am counting on it.