Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Adjusting to life without a baby

I has been about 3 weeks since Little Edward went back to his parents. He is doing least from what I can tell. I haven't heard anything negative so I assume. I am peaceful about where he is and happy for him and his parents. Ashanti's case is closed and I am peaceful about that for the most part as well. The past few weeks I have been busy with kids getting out of school for the summer and our trip to Denver so my life has been kind of crazy and I haven't missed having a baby here. But we are now settling down into a routine which consists of everyone staying up late and waking up late. Kind of nice honestly....but this week I keep thinking I am leaving someone in the van when we come home from somewhere...I keep feeling like I am missing someone when we are getting ready to head out the door. It is a strange feeling. I realized today that we have had a baby with us almost constantly for 14 months. You would think I would completely enjoy having my hands free a bit and there is a part of me that does but then there is that longing again. I think I just need time to adjust to not having the demands and joy of having a baby around. For those of you who have fostered....have you had this type of experience as well? How long does this "I am missing someone" feeling last?


BrImHaLl FaMiLy said...

I totally know what you are saying! I still do that, and I would wake up at night swearing that I heard them crying just to realize they weren’t even there!

CaryManda said...

it never goes away :)

Jean Horrocks said...

It never goes away. But it does get easier as times goes by. I still feel the loss of the three little boys I took care of from their birth until they were two years old and it has been 14 years. I have felt the loss as granchildren who spent many months and years in my home,moved away. Babies get a hold on your heart and don't let go.